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And that I have freed myself from the world of the moon. I understood that what is there, where everyone fritters themselves away on everyone — this no longer tempts me, I am free from this. And that I am ready for the fact that there must be my own person, there must be a family. Then he notes: not so much ready, but that I am right now being prepared for this. And that this will definitely be: I should have a wife, and in the future, also children. And that all of this is going precisely by the scenario, by the book. That is, this is the way it must be, and this is not everyday life, but a part of the novel “Alternative History,” a part of my spiritual path. And he also expressed himself unusually for the first time — that I am God. And that that God — that is also me, and this God — is also me… Well, I don’t remember to which word he said this, but to that moment when he started to say that the Spirit entered and exited, that I am fixing all of this. And that I am God and am putting things in order. And it was very unusual, believe me, that he said this “without mind” and without doubt, but he said it for the first time. I even got a little worried, of course reacted to this word.