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Posted: Tue Sep 15, 2026 11:01 am
And it is interesting that right now I am passing through this path, and that this is not just something personal and everyday of mine, but it is a part of “Alternative History.” Here is how it is.
I say to Big Alexander:
— Alright, but if I choose a girl, and they are all different… And when you choose a girl, then you, in essence, are choosing her world. One girl, as an example, can be such that she is an ordinary person, a simple one, from the locals, who, okay, is faithful and open, family-oriented, and ready to give birth to children. But she will never be able to travel with me through all the worlds, and in general she will not be able to perceive what the novel “Alternative History” is, what the Spirit is, and she knows nothing of the material world either.
Then I say:
— And if we take a second girl — this is just me making up examples, not about concrete people. She, let’s say, will be an entity who, on the contrary, can see and feel everything, and so on. And this is, as it were, all wonderful. But she, let’s say, does not know at all what a home is, what a family is, and cannot attach to people, or to me. And it will be such that, on the one hand she is there, on the other hand she isn’t.
Then I give a third option. I say:
— The third option — maybe a girl who is not in love with the heart, but it is clear that she is faithful and good, but, let’s say, a material one. On the other hand, with her one can do all kinds of material affairs. And which one am I to choose?
He says:
— The point in this is, precisely, that you don’t know this right now. And you need to find this out. And in order to find out, you should communicate with different people and see what resonates with you more, what less, what is more yours,
I say to Big Alexander:
— Alright, but if I choose a girl, and they are all different… And when you choose a girl, then you, in essence, are choosing her world. One girl, as an example, can be such that she is an ordinary person, a simple one, from the locals, who, okay, is faithful and open, family-oriented, and ready to give birth to children. But she will never be able to travel with me through all the worlds, and in general she will not be able to perceive what the novel “Alternative History” is, what the Spirit is, and she knows nothing of the material world either.
Then I say:
— And if we take a second girl — this is just me making up examples, not about concrete people. She, let’s say, will be an entity who, on the contrary, can see and feel everything, and so on. And this is, as it were, all wonderful. But she, let’s say, does not know at all what a home is, what a family is, and cannot attach to people, or to me. And it will be such that, on the one hand she is there, on the other hand she isn’t.
Then I give a third option. I say:
— The third option — maybe a girl who is not in love with the heart, but it is clear that she is faithful and good, but, let’s say, a material one. On the other hand, with her one can do all kinds of material affairs. And which one am I to choose?
He says:
— The point in this is, precisely, that you don’t know this right now. And you need to find this out. And in order to find out, you should communicate with different people and see what resonates with you more, what less, what is more yours,