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[Alexandr Korol]

go out with, into the world of people. Because then it was as if I had control — because he was in control — and I as if understood time, space, distance better, so as not to get lost. But when I am alone, none of that is there.

Then I learned what to do, sort of: eat various kinds of heavy food, plus sugar, plus drink, let’s say, some strong whisky — and then all of this would get jammed too, this cosmic state, and I could at least make sense of things. Could remember what I had said, understand where I was going from and to, and that’s how I jammed myself. And I also remember that there were moments when I would meet with someone, and as we communicated, the two of us would immediately end up in this vacuum, where all time has stopped, where you don’t understand whether it is warm or cold, whether you are even breathing the air at all. And sometimes it also gets very hot. That’s right — my chest was burning a few days ago, and my palms. And it gets so hot that the people around start going to the bathroom to splash water on themselves; in a restaurant, someone starts opening the windows. And I would think I was about to burst into flame. Such a chemical reaction would happen in me with certain people. I don’t know why, but some kind of connection like that would switch on. As if there are people around whom I get jammed and become at least an ordinary person, and there are people because of whom I get switched on even more and become even more not-a-person. I always avoided this, always tried to jam it. Because in this state it’s uncomfortable — you end up somewhere and you can’t live like a human being. But now I am only glad of this state, I am interested in this state, I want to go off into it.

And it’s wonderful that I am now starting to return to all of this. And another curious thing — the conclusion I’ve come to recently, even just yesterday: when you are in this Spirit, let’s call it that after all, when you are in this Kingdom of God, it is very important to photograph something, write some text, choose some object — because then, from that world, you fix something with these elements, so that you can return there later. And now, through what I recorded back then when I was in this state, on January 21 — through these same elements, the text, the audio, the photos, the music I was listening to back then and saved in the same sequence — all of this can now return me into this state. And so, the more I return there, the more I take from there of these elements, the more strongly I will be anchored there. That’s what I am doing right now.