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[Alexandr Korol]

The moment I put this information into the book, I will be given the new thing I need to describe — what will happen further on with everyone. Until I have described this, what I am describing right now, I will remain on this level. But I am simply being let through all the levels, shown all of this, so that I will definitely record all of this in the eleventh volume of the novel “Alternative History.” And so it turns out that I am being stuck into a group of people… People who are light, good, but the light was simply taken away from us starting in December. Of course, once a week the Spirit may come, but that’s only once a week. And, of course, when you communicate with your family, or if you have a personal life, those people more or less endure this darkness well.

Seriously. Just imagine — those who right now have a husband, a wife, children, and all of this is in love and in union: those people almost don’t notice that the Last Judgment is happening right now. They almost don’t notice. But those who are light, like me, but loners — when this darkness came right now and the light got switched off, the first thing one feels is a crazy clawing inside, a loneliness, a loneliness. The soul whimpers, something is scratching in there, howling. But the moment you start communicating with someone, you don’t feel this. But the moment you are left alone with yourself — you feel it.

What’s next? No sinful instincts, no thoughts wake up; no dark forces are attacking you. Or maybe this just hasn’t happened yet, but I am describing how it is at the present moment. So it seems everything is in order, but you simply remember that, when there is light inside you, you live clearly — by the feelings inside you, and by the thoughts inside you, which are broadcast by the light, and you know clearly what suits your soul: what to eat, what to drink, with whom to communicate, what to do, what to watch, what not to watch. And right now this reference point has been switched off. Only your memory can help you pass through this Last Judgment. That is, right now — and I myself am no exception — I don’t even feel whether this is good or that is good; I don’t feel it, but I know it with the mind, with the developed intellect — but I don’t feel it. I have to remember, to recall, and to control what is good and what is bad, because there is no use in orienting yourself by feeling. There are no false feelings, like in many sinful people — where you are pulled towards some vices. No.