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Posted: Tue Sep 15, 2026 1:12 pm
can’t really be so. You have to remember a different you — the one who fell asleep with this book in his hands. And you have to understand: that means right now you have been swapped out, just as your surroundings have. The light has gone, the darkness has settled in — and on top of that, you are giving free rein to this darkness. You cannot give free rein to the darkness, to let it control you. You cannot. If, truly, the book is heavy going, then yes, what’s the point of straining yourself, forcing yourself to read it? But at least don’t do bad things — the things the darkness will suddenly try to nudge you towards. Be careful with this. You may do something foolish. Many people right now, as I’m saying, will return to bad habits. Many will start drinking; many will be pulled into all kinds of lust; many will start to misuse social networks again, throwing money around left and right — and on the wrong things, not on what’s needed, but on the useless. And don’t forget — an unrestrained psyche — that is, you will get furious with everyone, irritated with everyone; people will be irritated with you, you will be irritated with everyone. And don’t let any of this spill over into conflicts. Take care of yourself and of those around you, please.
I want to share some suppositions. When the final mutation happens, I will have to fully complete this novel — and this should coincide with my having a bride; it should coincide with my deciphering the matrix to the end; and it should coincide with my moving somewhere as well. That is, everything is, sort of, simultaneous. It is all connected — one with another and with a third. Everything is connected. But I’m not specifically doing anything to make it happen — that is, I am simply living, doing my everyday tasks. I am not searching for anything; I am not forcing myself to build the matrix by sheer effort; I am not forcing myself by sheer effort to meet anyone; I am not forcing myself to move somewhere by sheer effort. Why should I make mistakes? When the time is right, the signs will come to me. I am waiting for the signs, if they come.
I’ll put it like this: right now the darkness is so strong, especially this past week, that even the numbers aren’t being highlighted to me — not 12:12, not 12:21, not 144. Nothing at all is being highlighted, except for the last thing — Christ in Glory. That, of course. But that is all. And right after that — there is simply emptiness, and before that there was emptiness. That is, when you are in the Spirit,
I want to share some suppositions. When the final mutation happens, I will have to fully complete this novel — and this should coincide with my having a bride; it should coincide with my deciphering the matrix to the end; and it should coincide with my moving somewhere as well. That is, everything is, sort of, simultaneous. It is all connected — one with another and with a third. Everything is connected. But I’m not specifically doing anything to make it happen — that is, I am simply living, doing my everyday tasks. I am not searching for anything; I am not forcing myself to build the matrix by sheer effort; I am not forcing myself by sheer effort to meet anyone; I am not forcing myself to move somewhere by sheer effort. Why should I make mistakes? When the time is right, the signs will come to me. I am waiting for the signs, if they come.
I’ll put it like this: right now the darkness is so strong, especially this past week, that even the numbers aren’t being highlighted to me — not 12:12, not 12:21, not 144. Nothing at all is being highlighted, except for the last thing — Christ in Glory. That, of course. But that is all. And right after that — there is simply emptiness, and before that there was emptiness. That is, when you are in the Spirit,