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relationships, in the world of the sun, in the world of the family — she always thinks about you, and he always thinks about you, and so they always think of each other. If he has gone to work, or she has gone to work, you are still connected to each other, and nothing else exists; everything else is in the background, like fog. This is very interesting. And so attention is held in this way in the world of the moon — that is, scattered over everyone and everything — and in the world of the sun, only on two halves. And I understand that this is logical. If I am, after all, to become “the chief Mason” — let’s put it jokingly, in quotation marks — if I am to become above everyone, above everything, above the sun and the moon — that is, to become the star, that is, the Spirit — then what’s the point in my building a family, right? But again, won’t it be the case that, if I do not build a family right now, I will be thinking that I need one? That would be stealing my attention, you understand? I must not simply reject this with the mind — I must come to realize this — that is, in order to free yourself from the moon, you must overeat to nausea on this social mass, that is, on the world of the moon, and then it no longer steals your attention. That is, nothing right now can tempt me to end up in the social mass, in the world of the moon. I will never again in my life want to show how I am living, or look at how people are living. My attention simply does not focus on that. Can you imagine how I have freed myself from this? And yet earlier, when I had only just appeared, Alexandr Korol the writer — I already was who I am only now supposed to become. You see — I was lowered down to the very bottom, so that I would describe this whole path for everyone.
And the world of the sun — it would be the same as if the masons had simply, let’s say, told me: “Alex, you can’t have a family, because you must be above this” — I would still be thinking about it, about how I want a family, and would be looking at every girl as my potential bride. And, looking at friends and acquaintances who have families, I would be thinking about how they have one and I don’t. That would steal my attention and would trouble me, because I had not had this. And I have to try it, in order to free myself from it. As, consequently, with the social mass — how can one just go and say to a person, “Don’t want the social mass, and don’t show yourself to it,” if you haven’t passed through this? That is, you will still try to climb into it, because you haven’t come to know it. And here is the question: what is one to do? After all, it turns out that on the one hand, maybe
And the world of the sun — it would be the same as if the masons had simply, let’s say, told me: “Alex, you can’t have a family, because you must be above this” — I would still be thinking about it, about how I want a family, and would be looking at every girl as my potential bride. And, looking at friends and acquaintances who have families, I would be thinking about how they have one and I don’t. That would steal my attention and would trouble me, because I had not had this. And I have to try it, in order to free myself from it. As, consequently, with the social mass — how can one just go and say to a person, “Don’t want the social mass, and don’t show yourself to it,” if you haven’t passed through this? That is, you will still try to climb into it, because you haven’t come to know it. And here is the question: what is one to do? After all, it turns out that on the one hand, maybe