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[Alexandr Korol]

underground kingdom, someone in the kingdom of the dead. And everyone can put on Angus & Julia Stone and say: “Yes, wonderful, I listened to it.” But only in one world does it start to become volumetric — as if you become this music. That is the point. And only in this world I was now in is Angus & Julia Stone really the soundtrack. And all such traveler-music is really the soundtrack — but Angus & Julia Stone more so, and YOAV — the first albums. Well — right now in the background a song from the film “Knockin’ on Heaven’s Door” is playing. But all of it is so volumetric. That is — melodies from “Mr. Magorium’s Wonder Emporium” or “K-PAX.” The melodies there were magical too. All very heartwarming somehow, somehow light. This is what I recorded — that this music became really volumetric, that you really drown in it, and you can even listen to one and the same track on repeat. As if it has become super-spiritual, sort of, for you.

Well — moving on. So it turns out, I was in this state for a whole week. Then I exit this state, close myself off, ground myself. And after about a day, or after two days, I begin to think, and finally start to evaluate at all what that was — that I had been like a vegetable, that I had been completely “without the mind,” that it was as if I had been there for some eternity. That the week I had spent there feels as if I had lived a whole life there. And that of course, there everything is wonderful, everything is excellent, a crazy happiness. And back then I supposed that maybe this is precisely my kind of reaction to the girl I had connected to, and she connected to me, and maybe because of this it happened. And that this is how the world of the sun became amplified. That was my supposition. And then I started thinking even more: “Oh, well then I definitely don’t need anything like that. I want to be aware.” I need to write books, not to go off into this — paradise, some kind of family happiness — because what wafts from this world is not only childhood but also family — that you are not only a child, but as if you are in the world of family. That was my first supposition. But again — I am picking the words and describing the path. It may later turn out to be the complete opposite. And further on, after a couple of days, I started supposing that maybe it isn’t because of the girl at all, but on the contrary, because I had refused, in my own head, the world of the sun and the moon. And maybe this isn’t even the world of the sun, but already the third one — and that this is, after all, the Spirit.