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[Alexandr Korol]

I asked the person to interrupt the conversation after 10 minutes. Because otherwise we would lose ourselves in time again. And then, over time, I stopped speaking on the phone altogether, because it would suck me in very strongly — really, suck me in somewhere. That is — in the literal sense — through the phone, I would leave my world, my apartment, where I was located, and would end up, as it were, in the body and in the apartment of the person I was talking with. That is — the connection was that strong. I didn’t learn this — it happened all by itself. I was simply that kind of child.

Another topic — about attachment, one of the rules. All of this, you understand, didn’t happen over the course of one week, but over the period of several years. And during that period of several years, I was at first more cosmic, and then more earthly. That is — there was the transition from the cosmic me to the more earthly me, which is why at certain moments certain things may differ. I am describing a period, not a single month of a single version of me. There are still some levels and sublevels of this spiritual me. So the rules will be for different versions of me — but all of this is, after all, about this person “without the mind,” you understand? And here, look — there were also periods when I would go out into the street alone, and then this state would intensify. But what I noticed, and what I had written in my diaries — I want to find all of that now, of course. I would record this kind of state — that I would go out into the street, and would walk, figuratively speaking, 10, maybe 20 kilometers. And I would arrange it so that it was as if 5 minutes had passed, and I had walked those 20 kilometers. That’s precisely about the illusion of the perception of time. That is — the time itself was passing all the same, just like always. But I would explain to people that if I am “without the mind,” in this super-cosmic state of mine, then if I leave the house on the outskirts of Petersburg and walk to the city centre, that will happen as if in an instant — that while I was listening to a single five-minute song, during that time I had already ended up where I was walking to. Yes — it could have taken a certain number of hours, but by sensation, it was as if I only remembered just leaving the house, and there I already was in the city centre — as if I had walked for 5 minutes. And I did this many times and used this technique, this kind of setting, I don’t know what to call it.