Alexandr Korol

when she became ill, I described this state — then when I was telling all of this, let’s say, to the interlocutor at the restaurant, the two of us together would end up in this vacuum, this “cosmos.” And then we would lose ourselves in time and in space — so that after the meeting, when the person would walk out into the street with me — we are just walking out, someone going by taxi, by public transport — and the person didn’t understand at all where he was supposed to go. He had, as it were, even forgotten how long we had been sitting and talking. And he couldn’t, as it were, pull his thoughts together to even think and remember where he was supposed to go next — to work, or to school, or home. Can you imagine? And this often happened with people, the ones with whom I was talking about this otherworldly “cosmos” — back then, in my 20s to 25s. But more and more, I would forget that magical version of myself — and everything that happened, almost always, was random. That with energy one can affect food and drinks — the way I first affected the perfume — this happened by accident. And the fact that I was corresponding with someone, and suddenly someone would feel how my chest and palms were burning. That was simply by accident — the person had originally said that he was feeling so strange — and I say: “It’s the same for me.” And then I started to understand that, probably, he is feeling me, or I am feeling him. And so I was also starting to figure out this. That is — everything manifested itself by accident. That is — I had no esoteric textbooks at all, to learn anything from. I had never believed in this. I had never communicated with such people. I had never read anything about this. And it was simply all there for me on its own, by accident, naturally, for real. Even, you see, the meditation — it wasn’t the kind that’s fake now, but a real one.

And you know what is most important? Everyone wants some kind of “cosmos,” to expand their consciousness, something else — people right now are lost, the ones living in the 21st century. And I will put it like this: it’s not this that is needed. What everyone needs, in fact… How do I explain it to you. That is — what’s important now is not to feel this divine code, the way it was in me in my childhood. And what did I run up against back then? This code I was feeling, and was this code, but there were no words, no examples — I was uneducated. And I couldn’t write this. “Hem and haw,” just like that. And the point is: what’s the use, now, of people who are right now expanding their consciousness at all