Alexandr Korol

started shooting the first videos like that — I called them “The Truth. Alexandr Korol.” And that was precisely when he would ask me questions, and I would answer to the iPhone camera “without the mind.” And back then I looked absurd, and all the people would laugh at me. That is — you see — I kept going, going into the social mass, but was still cosmic. And people in the comments would write that I am strange, would write that my eye was twitching, would judge my haircut, my T-shirt, what was standing on the table. And the people were more and more and more and more spiteful. That’s how it was — just so you understand, how people, how society greeted me, when I was simply just telling them how I feel the world — with kindness and sincerity, with no ulterior motive, wishing nothing bad to people, with a pure soul. And that’s how they reacted. This is also important to record. It’s important to record, so that everyone would now understand what they are getting their life for, the kind they have been given right now, why they live the way they do. For all their kinds of shamefulness. It’s important to understand all of this. The more I would descend into the world of people, the more I would be disillusioned in them. And there it is like this: the longer you are in this, the more you yourself turn into one like that. You can’t even control this. It’s as if, in order not to be like the people, you have to not be with these people. And I, for some reason, kept climbing in there back then, when I was young. Well — that’s already other moments and questions.

What else can I remember? Well, you know — that state, when it was at its maximum power, back then in childhood, and now, two weeks ago — it is very similar to dreams. That is — when you have a dream, you can sometimes even, it happens, even realize that you are in a dream, but you still can’t do anything about it. You still can’t, inside the dream, start shouting to everyone: “Hey, I am in a dream!” That’s impossible in my sense, for me this is impossible. When I have dreams, I am in the dream — even if I start a little bit to realize that I am in a dream, I still, as it were, live in it according to a set script. That is — I cannot see myself from outside, but it is always I. I am not a dog, not a cat, always only I. Not some other person, always only I, the way I am used to perceiving myself, that is how I perceive myself in the dream. I can see my hands, but I myself cannot see myself. I am, as it were, looking through my own eyes at people. And so I have a dream. And when I have it, I don’t know what it started from.