Alexandr Korol

And I was telling my friends just now: “I want to try going off into this state once more, deliberately this time. And I don’t know whether it will work out or not.” And so I am planning to do this right now, today, tomorrow — that is, to cross over there — and maybe it won’t even work out. And so I was telling the guys: “Look, I am going to be crossing over there. You understand — if I go off there right now, again into this state, then I will forget about you. I won’t remember you, until you call me. You will simply get erased from my head.” “I will simply be sitting at home, doing something” — I tell my friend — “and won’t even remember that you exist. Well — it’s understandable that when you write to me, or if in a week you come over, then of course I will recognize you, and will understand that you are you — after all, this isn’t some kind of mental disorder in the head. After all, this is super-spirituality, not a problem with the head. Of course, I will remember you when you come over, and will understand who you are. But simply — when you come over — that is, the malfunctions only happen with time — I won’t understand, it will seem to me that we had seen each other yesterday, but you will tell me: ‘Alex, a year has passed.’ That can happen — that you, let’s say, had met up with me a year ago, and a year later you met up with me because you called me. Of course, I remember you — here we have met up — but you will say that we hadn’t seen each other for a year, and I’ll be amazed at this, because it had seemed to me that we’d seen each other recently. That’s what will be happening.”

I tell my friends that if this happens — that is, if I go off there — then I won’t be able to write books. I won’t be able to structure all my notes in the proper sequence, and won’t even be able to think about this — it’s very hard. I say: “I will be able to broadcast something onto a dictaphone, but I will again get lost in time and not understand what I have already said and what I haven’t” — like that, in the moment, I can. But even if some information has come to me, or an idea, right now, and I postpone this until the evening, I will no longer be able to explain this information. And everything will get mixed up — I won’t understand what happened in the evening, what during the day, what in the morning — that is why I have to either broadcast in the moment, or already not broadcast, not record it in a note. It’s very hard. When you are in this state, you even forget to turn on the dictaphone. What else, in this state? I was telling the guys that if I go off into it… I say: “If you don’t write to me, call me, until you show up,