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[Alexandr Korol]

you won’t be in my head, and consequently, it’s as if you aren’t there. I will simply be focused on music or on a film. You’ll call me, I’ll answer, and everything is fine. But a minute after our conversation, I won’t remember what we had talked about, because I will already be focused on something else.” Well — and further on I say that maybe I should go off into this state for good now. Then I started thinking: but maybe a family is needed for this? Maybe, on the contrary, I have to be in a relationship, and not be alone at home, so that I could be in this very state — but so that at least people would be a kind of temporary point of reference for me, so that I wouldn’t forget to eat, to sleep. Maybe a family is needed for this — so that I would feel myself like a child with my future wife. And she will somehow run everything, the household, simply, as a point of reference — and I will be this “without the mind” one. Maybe a family is needed for this.

Then I think: or, on the contrary, must I be alone, in order to be in this “cosmos”? I say: “I don’t understand. Well — Big Alexander was speaking, not for nothing, about how, for some reason, a team is needed — he was saying it all the time. Or maybe it wasn’t he who was speaking — but I from the future — that is, the Spirit was speaking to me through him?” He would speak about how a team is needed. And I already had such feelings back then, even in 2010, when I was already starting to climb more and more into this social mass, into this material world of the mind — I understood that, if I wanted to remain fully in “without the mind,” how would I pay rent on the apartment? How would I work? That because of this you have to be in the social mass. And it would be wonderful to have unlimited money — so that you would have your own butler, like in a film — and that would be it, and you can further “go out of your mind.” And so, in essence, I already have employees, and a team, and relatives who can take care of everything — and I will “go out of my mind,” will completely let go of control and will be “without the mind,” will become a child again. And why not? At least, if they ask me questions, I will answer any question, will work wonders. And maybe I really am supposed to go off into this state. I don’t know. Maybe this book — only right now — the eleventh volume — is about this, and afterwards I will again become earthly, material. Maybe I am switching on into this temporarily right now. And maybe I really am going off into this for good now.