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[Alexandr Korol]

was doing the technique of the opening of the channel, I was alone, without relationships. And that was precisely when the voice through me would speak — that I must not start a family, that I must be alone, that I came here not to live, but to work. And I was “without the mind,” a pure magical child. And then, only afterwards, after the places of power, after the messengers, after Big Alexander, in the summer of 2011, I maximally already started to descend, to plunge into the material world — and that was when I built my first relationship with the girl Katya. And precisely then my attention all switched off, as it were, from God, and went onto her, and hers onto me. That’s how it was. And after I broke up with her, my attention already started going onto people, and I started thinking about people, and people started seeing me and thinking about me — specifically with the mind — that is, the evaluating, scattered attention. Or the gathered attention onto a partner — that is, the girl’s onto me, and mine onto her. And so it turns out — if everything is going in the opposite direction, the way it all began, then maybe it’s precisely because right now I have met up with the female friend and understood: “Ah — well, here is the bride, the one I can choose, and go off into a relationship. Oh, cool!” And because of this, I started to feel the “cosmos,” the daze, the family happiness, all of this — and as if I was in childhood. But maybe I started to feel this not because of her, not because of the kind of connection we have, but precisely because she is there, while at the same time, I did not choose the relationship, but took a pause to think. And so, when I took the pause, my attention then was no longer on her. That is — at first it had been on people in the social mass, in the world of the moon, then on her for a couple of days while we were communicating — that’s the world of the sun. And then, the next one — that is the Spirit — that is, my attention was no longer on her, or on people, but simply on myself, or as if on God. I don’t know how to explain this. And then, probably, all of this came over me in such a way that two weeks ago, I went off for a week into this state. That is — this is already a kind of consequence. I don’t know, I’ll still decipher it. But I am recording all of this as it is.

What’s curious is that in this state, when I was there recently, two weeks ago, I wouldn’t say that you become directly a vegetable, a vegetable. No! It’s simply that everything is set up differently there — as if your psyche… That is — I can calmly start making food, or watch a film. I can meet up with one of my friends and go