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It’s as if there is a little something left to see, just like that — and that’s it. And he says: “And further on, you will, by selection, selectively decide whom to tell this to, so that they too could climb up the ladder, the one you have climbed up.” By selection, he says — not to everyone. Well — again — this isn’t that I will end up physically somewhere — I will be in the same place where you all live — there I will be — but it’s simply that the state will be unique: a different dimension, a frequency, a power, you understand?
And further on, from the moment I had decided that I am going off into this state “without the mind,” I decided that the strongest thing is if I simply leave the house and go off somewhere into nowhere — rather than just sitting at home — in order to amplify it. That is — what amplifies me? And this, too, is such an interesting psychological thing. If scientists or psychologists studied it, they would call it something else altogether — what switches on and happens to me. You know what switches on and happens? Like in that film with Jolie, “Wanted,” where there was the Fraternity of weavers. This isn’t the first time I’m talking about this — about that boy who would go off into some kind of panic state, from which his heartbeat would somehow change, from which everything would slow down, and so he was able to shoot a fly’s wing. And the point is — at certain circumstances, this state switches on in me. And this is it. It is as if, like an intensified excitement. And that, in essence, it is from excitement. And the point is — if I jam this excitement with chocolates, let’s say, or with Coca-Cola and alcohol, then this excitement isn’t there. But if I am not jamming it, while at the same time I arrange this excitement for myself — and just imagine — what’s most amusing — it switches on simply from the fact that I meet up with someone right now. And that’s it. And if I now speak publicly, or meet up with someone, I become the Spirit. Or if I simply get on public transport right now and go somewhere alone, or fly somewhere, can you imagine? It’s as if some kind of level of self-preservation switches on, and I end up in some kind of vacuum. But I just hadn’t been bringing myself to such a thing, haven’t been bringing myself to it in recent times — but right now I will be bringing myself to it. And it’s as if it’s some kind of opposite world than the one I had been living in the last 10 years, simply put. Before — that was precisely what I was. I was always in this “cosmos.”
And further on, from the moment I had decided that I am going off into this state “without the mind,” I decided that the strongest thing is if I simply leave the house and go off somewhere into nowhere — rather than just sitting at home — in order to amplify it. That is — what amplifies me? And this, too, is such an interesting psychological thing. If scientists or psychologists studied it, they would call it something else altogether — what switches on and happens to me. You know what switches on and happens? Like in that film with Jolie, “Wanted,” where there was the Fraternity of weavers. This isn’t the first time I’m talking about this — about that boy who would go off into some kind of panic state, from which his heartbeat would somehow change, from which everything would slow down, and so he was able to shoot a fly’s wing. And the point is — at certain circumstances, this state switches on in me. And this is it. It is as if, like an intensified excitement. And that, in essence, it is from excitement. And the point is — if I jam this excitement with chocolates, let’s say, or with Coca-Cola and alcohol, then this excitement isn’t there. But if I am not jamming it, while at the same time I arrange this excitement for myself — and just imagine — what’s most amusing — it switches on simply from the fact that I meet up with someone right now. And that’s it. And if I now speak publicly, or meet up with someone, I become the Spirit. Or if I simply get on public transport right now and go somewhere alone, or fly somewhere, can you imagine? It’s as if some kind of level of self-preservation switches on, and I end up in some kind of vacuum. But I just hadn’t been bringing myself to such a thing, haven’t been bringing myself to it in recent times — but right now I will be bringing myself to it. And it’s as if it’s some kind of opposite world than the one I had been living in the last 10 years, simply put. Before — that was precisely what I was. I was always in this “cosmos.”