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[Alexandr Korol]

And it’s a shame and a disgrace that they deciphered Sacred Scripture badly. But never mind that.

And so my friend tells me: “Well — alright. And if God is omnipotent, then why can God not become God, and after this, if he wants, start a family? Or why, if he is God, can he not start a family, if he is God already anyway?” I say: “Hey, wait — you are mixing up the moment a little. I am not God right now. In order to become Him, I have to make the choice — but until I have made this choice, I haven’t yet become Him. And what I, precisely, have to right now is to realize. Specifically, to realize — not just to point a finger to the sky and choose — but to realize why this is no, and that is yes. And when I realize this, everything will happen. And yes — if I choose, let’s say, to be alone — then maybe I will become God. And, of course, if I become God — that is, all-powerful — then I will, naturally, be able to come back to people. And if I right now choose family, and to be a simple mortal — then I will not become God, and then will do nothing. And then yes, here you can sort of logically understand what to choose.” And this person — he was trying to understand all this logically. I say: “Yeah, you won’t understand this so logically.” And we were touching on an interesting topic with him about how every person has some kind of one key thing, the one thing that drives him. And what drives me is loneliness. Because of this I have super-abilities, power; because of this I am so strange. Because of this I write books, because of this I look on people the way I do from outside — and at the same time, because of this very loneliness, I myself, on occasion, suffer. That is — all of this is my loneliness — that is the kind of power. And in other people it is something of their own. With some it is greed, with some fear, with some the desire to please everyone. Each person is driven by one thing — and on the basis of this is built his family, his relationships, his work. All of this — his behavior — comes out of only one of these qualities of his. And I tell him: “So if it is this way, that what drives me is this loneliness — then, probably, that means: not family and not children. Because then I will lose my power. After all, I always became unique, and the wonders happened, precisely when I had maximally remained alone and lonely. And that means, on the contrary, after all, I have to refuse everything and remain no one, nothing, and with nothing.” And I am telling him all of this — and I say: “Well, here is an example — that right now, by 1%, my realization