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Posted: Wed Sep 16, 2026 8:11 am
One person asked me the question: “What will happen if I go off into this state,
the one I need to go off into? And what do I need to do? And when it happens,
will it reflect onto people or not?” I saw such a picture — that I must go off into
nowhere. If technically, physically — let me try to describe it once more: buy a
one-way ticket to some country so that no one would find out about it, simply
throw out the phone, fly off, and vanish. But not vanish forever. Maybe it will
be enough that I simply imagine that I am going off into nowhere for a month,
two months, no matter. And when I do this, at that moment something must
click over. And what will happen is that my attention will be freed. It will let
go of everything it is connected to — the way it is with all people. All people are
connected to families, friends, jobs, and so on. And so my attention will have
to disconnect from everything — the way it once did, when this happened —
when I left home at 17. In essence, I must repeat the same thing. And when I do
it this way, what will happen will be, as it were, the same as what God showed
me back then, when I was listening to the music “Beautiful Life” by YOAV —
that, as if, everything is in my head.
But then, when all of this happens, I, as it were, can come back to people and
home — but I won’t be able to focus on anything. My attention will be entirely fully
concentrated, as if on myself. And everything around will be as if behind glass.
That is — if you describe the sensations. One can also pick other words. And if
this happens to me, how will this reflect on people? Let’s suppose — if a person
has a job or a husband, then his attention will go so much into himself, that he
will perceive the job and family as if he is in a vacuum, as if it is in parallel with
him, but behind glass. Most often, people have experienced something similar.
When, let’s say, in a relationship, a man and a woman have had a quarrel — the
partner who had the quarrel with his partner has, as it were, come out from
under the influence. And then when the person reconciles with this person, the
relationship is sort of restored — but the attention can no longer connect onto
him — he is looking on all of this from the outside. Approximately such a thing will
be happening with some part of the people, or with all the people, I don’t know.
The same thing happened back then, approximately in 2008. Back then my
attention completely switched off from everything, gathered into one point —
the one I need to go off into? And what do I need to do? And when it happens,
will it reflect onto people or not?” I saw such a picture — that I must go off into
nowhere. If technically, physically — let me try to describe it once more: buy a
one-way ticket to some country so that no one would find out about it, simply
throw out the phone, fly off, and vanish. But not vanish forever. Maybe it will
be enough that I simply imagine that I am going off into nowhere for a month,
two months, no matter. And when I do this, at that moment something must
click over. And what will happen is that my attention will be freed. It will let
go of everything it is connected to — the way it is with all people. All people are
connected to families, friends, jobs, and so on. And so my attention will have
to disconnect from everything — the way it once did, when this happened —
when I left home at 17. In essence, I must repeat the same thing. And when I do
it this way, what will happen will be, as it were, the same as what God showed
me back then, when I was listening to the music “Beautiful Life” by YOAV —
that, as if, everything is in my head.
But then, when all of this happens, I, as it were, can come back to people and
home — but I won’t be able to focus on anything. My attention will be entirely fully
concentrated, as if on myself. And everything around will be as if behind glass.
That is — if you describe the sensations. One can also pick other words. And if
this happens to me, how will this reflect on people? Let’s suppose — if a person
has a job or a husband, then his attention will go so much into himself, that he
will perceive the job and family as if he is in a vacuum, as if it is in parallel with
him, but behind glass. Most often, people have experienced something similar.
When, let’s say, in a relationship, a man and a woman have had a quarrel — the
partner who had the quarrel with his partner has, as it were, come out from
under the influence. And then when the person reconciles with this person, the
relationship is sort of restored — but the attention can no longer connect onto
him — he is looking on all of this from the outside. Approximately such a thing will
be happening with some part of the people, or with all the people, I don’t know.
The same thing happened back then, approximately in 2008. Back then my
attention completely switched off from everything, gathered into one point —