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On March 6, I saw a little booth with a fortune-teller, the kind who reads
the Tarot. A black woman was sitting there. And I went up to her, because I
understand — after all, we live in the system. And the system controls everything.
So what difference does it make whom I use as an avatar, right? I sit down, ask
for a reading. She asks what I want. And I explain that I need to understand:
am I to remain here in the social mass, in the material world, to build a family,
and to simply be here — or, after all, to go off into hermitage, into nowhere
altogether, out of the system, out of the world of people — but in exchange, I
will awaken. So it’s interesting — what to choose? Show me what the future
shows. She begins to spread the Tarot cards. First, she begins to pray — and
energy is radiating from her, that is, everything is working. And she laid the
cards correctly, so as to randomly feel the card that sticks out or falls out — that
is, that’s what is important. And she really attuned herself to me correctly. She
pulls out the cards — and out come the king, the queen, and in the middle, the
card of the Star — just imagine. I say: “Incredible, I’ve been deciphering this for
the last six months, and here this comes out.” And she says that it isn’t being
shown to her that I am some kind of hermit, and that I won’t have anything. On
the contrary — it shows that I will meet a queen who is the like of me. She must
be of the same level — and a marriage will take place. That is — she shows the
Star and says: “This is the marriage of the king and the queen.” So precisely — if
you cross the sun and the moon, that is the star, and that will be their marriage.
And after this, she says, in general — whatever I think and want will be just so…
and the realization, and the publicity, and the success — in general, everything.
That is — it doesn’t add up that I will go off into hermitage. But before all of this
happens, and before I meet the queen, and before the Star takes place, and this
success — pointing to a card, she says: “This card is a going into oneself, like a
plunge into the depths of oneself, maybe a meditation.” And I tell her that this is
what I had in mind. After all, I am not wanting to go off forever. My supposition
is: if I go off into this meditation, then I will have some kind of revelation, an
awakening. And after this, when I come back, all of this will be. And she agrees
that I won’t disappear anywhere, but will simply plunge into the depths of myself.
In order to plunge into the depths of myself, I need to leave home and go off
into nowhere.
the Tarot. A black woman was sitting there. And I went up to her, because I
understand — after all, we live in the system. And the system controls everything.
So what difference does it make whom I use as an avatar, right? I sit down, ask
for a reading. She asks what I want. And I explain that I need to understand:
am I to remain here in the social mass, in the material world, to build a family,
and to simply be here — or, after all, to go off into hermitage, into nowhere
altogether, out of the system, out of the world of people — but in exchange, I
will awaken. So it’s interesting — what to choose? Show me what the future
shows. She begins to spread the Tarot cards. First, she begins to pray — and
energy is radiating from her, that is, everything is working. And she laid the
cards correctly, so as to randomly feel the card that sticks out or falls out — that
is, that’s what is important. And she really attuned herself to me correctly. She
pulls out the cards — and out come the king, the queen, and in the middle, the
card of the Star — just imagine. I say: “Incredible, I’ve been deciphering this for
the last six months, and here this comes out.” And she says that it isn’t being
shown to her that I am some kind of hermit, and that I won’t have anything. On
the contrary — it shows that I will meet a queen who is the like of me. She must
be of the same level — and a marriage will take place. That is — she shows the
Star and says: “This is the marriage of the king and the queen.” So precisely — if
you cross the sun and the moon, that is the star, and that will be their marriage.
And after this, she says, in general — whatever I think and want will be just so…
and the realization, and the publicity, and the success — in general, everything.
That is — it doesn’t add up that I will go off into hermitage. But before all of this
happens, and before I meet the queen, and before the Star takes place, and this
success — pointing to a card, she says: “This card is a going into oneself, like a
plunge into the depths of oneself, maybe a meditation.” And I tell her that this is
what I had in mind. After all, I am not wanting to go off forever. My supposition
is: if I go off into this meditation, then I will have some kind of revelation, an
awakening. And after this, when I come back, all of this will be. And she agrees
that I won’t disappear anywhere, but will simply plunge into the depths of myself.
In order to plunge into the depths of myself, I need to leave home and go off
into nowhere.