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[Alexandr Korol]

I’m not afraid.. but my breath catches..as if I were a ghost.. as if I had died.. or,
on the contrary, been born again.. as if I had been moved into some other world..
and everything is as if behind glass.. or I am, as it were, in some kind of vacuum..

..I still have it in memory.. that old thing, where I still existed just recently.. and further..
further on, will I forget my past entirely soon?.. or is the past, after all, so strong that
it will bring me back..

.. I don’t know.. all that’s left is to observe.. where all of this will lead me

..if anything happens.. that doesn’t yield to the laws of physics.. I will write about
it.. this warping of time and space.. time here flows completely differently.. and the
perception of everything around is completely other..

..if I could just pick the right, fitting words to describe all of this..

..such reflections visit me.. that it’s as if..you can’t, by letting go of your whole old past
life.. become immortal.. be reborn.. be born again.. start a new life.. end up in a new,
different world..

..it’s as if this is the most important secret.. if we take into account that we live in a
system.. in a simulation.. with a multitude of universes and multiverses..

..you can’t start the new.. by dragging into this new world something from the previous
life.. because all those people.. all their prisms of perceiving me.. affect me there and
make me there into who I was already.. and to start everything over from scratch.. one
has to remain alone and let go of the past..

And so in the new world, a new me.. everything new, and new people will be meeting
me on my path.. but this will already be a completely different reality.. and that’s what
I want to check right now.. see.. confirm.. be certain.. that it is precisely so..

.. I once answered someone’s question.. what would I do if I were suddenly found to
have cancer.. and I said back then.. — I would leave.. I would walk out of the house