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[Alexandr Korol]

Chapter 15. Observations and the Voice

• Listen to the track “The One to Wait” — CCFX.

I asked AI what this song is about:

These are reflections on a difficult choice: to leave home or to stay. The main heroine
(or hero) feels that the decision has almost already been made for her/him, but inside
there are doubts and pain.

Key themes:

• To leave or to stay? Home can be a trap, and growth is only a temporary phase. Is it
worth selling everything and leaving for the unknown?
• Fear of being too late with the decision. If you keep guessing for too long, you’ll
become ‘the one to wait’ — the one left waiting while the other leaves.
• Farewell and sadness. It will be painful to part (‘And you know that I will miss you’),
but sometimes you have to let go of the past, ‘dissolve it in the dusk’ and move on.
• Escapism and coming of age. The song is about how you want to run away, even if
you don’t quite know where or why. Many listeners feel in it a story of a breakup or
a move, when one person is ready to change and the other is not.

Another thing I had recorded in my notes is this song. It started strongly stealing
my attention, and I asked the artificial intelligence what meaning it carries. And
it’s very similar to what I have been going through this last month too… It has
been coming up for me often over the last month. And so it’s like a soundtrack
of the month of March. I want to record this in the eleventh volume of the novel.

• Watch the film “The Nines.”

Oblivion is when something (or someone) fully disappears from memory, from
consciousness, from history. Not just ‘I forgot the keys,’ but much more serious:
as if this had never existed at all.