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[Alexandr Korol]

of course, sounds very grandiose, pompous — that the Spirit told me — he
said it first about one friend I asked about. And then he says that both the
mystic-old-man and Big Alexander are also in such a position. That there are
people in my circle who live only because of me. Again, it sounds very grandiose,
pompous, I’m sorry. I’m shy, I apologize — that they live only because of me.
That is, when they go about their everyday ordinary life, of course they do some
things of their own, but in general their mission, and the meaning of life, and
purpose — is me. And that this concerns many people. And that those people who
don’t understand this, and who at times over the course of life turn away from
me, as from the Spirit, they keep trying to build their lives, but they get beaten
there, kicked, life doesn’t come together. And when they begin to appear in my
life again and to carry out their mission and role, so to speak, to help me, then
everything comes right for them again. The moment they get above themselves
again, go carousing and wander off somewhere into the world of people, they get
it over the head again. So it’s a very interesting story like that. And again, there’s
a hint about this same thing in the film “The Nines,” about the people around
that hero, that character.

Oh, and another interesting moment. When I was asking about all my friends,
I asked about Masha Mikh — like, how come, in December, when I saw her, it
turned out that she was somehow in the underground kingdom there. How so,
what happened? And the Spirit tells me: “She was always in the underground
kingdom, her whole life.” It’s just that I didn’t know this back when I didn’t know
the worlds, and knew nothing at all, so simply, at times, when she appeared in my
life, or when I appeared in her life, I’d just end up in the underground kingdom
then, or in the world of the dead, it’s unclear. Well, probably in the world of the
dead, even. And I’d end up there, and that’s why she’s there. And then I’d leave
that, then end up there again. But now, when I’ve come to know all the worlds
and risen above them, that’s why I was horrified — like, “whoa, Masha Mikh is
in the underground kingdom” — but in reality she was there her whole life. She
didn’t end up there just now; it’s just that I’ve only realized it now, because I’ve
come to know all the worlds and can now match them up and compare them,
can you imagine? And the voice said that she’s not bad, that I can keep in touch
with her, that everything’s fine, and that on the contrary I should get in touch