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[Alexandr Korol]

Chapter 18. Notes

I also recalled, from having become this thing now, let’s call it the Spirit… Maybe
it’ll turn out later that I’ll call it something else, and the Spirit is something
different — but again, it’s something higher than what I am, than what I was.
And so, when I became this thing now, I immediately began to recall when I used
to be like this before, when I described it in my first books, in my rough draft
first books. In my first book, which was called “The Answer,” “The Path,” then
there were books like “The Language of Circumstances,” “Another World,” “The
Holy Fool,” then I gathered it all together, called the book “Paradox.” Back then,
I remember, when I was this Spirit. And if I talked with some people right up
close, live, then I didn’t have big examples from the mind, any from the mind, to
somehow explain how this all works. Back then I lived precisely by feelings, and
I’d simply tell a person that: “You’re holding on — out of insecurity and fear —
you’re holding on to everything, holding on very hard, thinking very hard about
it and holding on, keeping it in your head. And that it’s as if, in order to become
spiritual, it’s as if you need to take a step into the unknown.” That’s how I wrote
back then in my books, little, when I was 20 years old, but I didn’t understand
what I meant, yet I wrote it as it is. That it’s as if, if I’d simply say to a person: just
go and write it. Well, let’s say a person tells me, a friend, let’s say, tells me back
then, to me at 20 years old: “Alex, I don’t want to go to work tomorrow.” And I
see that because he’s got work tomorrow, he isn’t even here and now with me.
He’s worried about it, thinking about it. It’s like some kind of heaviness in his
head, which shuts out the light that’s supposed to enter him, into the lens, into
the matrix, into the heart. And I tell him: “Then just write to your boss right now
that you won’t come tomorrow, that you can’t go tomorrow. That you don’t want to
go tomorrow. That you want to take sick leave.” He says: “Well, but I’m not sick,
that’s a lie, after all.” I say: “Then don’t say that you’re sick, but that you want to
take sick leave. Just write this and don’t go to work tomorrow.” And he answers:
“But what if I get fired for this?” — very frightened, he starts fussing even more.
I say: “Just write it and that’s it. And don’t go, come what may.”

When a person did this, he’d be liberated right away, his mind would switch off,
faith would switch on. And on top of that, later, the next day and the day after,