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I became the way I am now — again in the Spirit and magical — not because of
America. But precisely when I understood a certain something, on March 9th at
the Nine Inch Nails concert. And the next day, or when I went off into nowhere
there, renouncing everything. That’s when I became this, what I now am — I shine.
I shine strongly. Right now I have a whole heap of notes, which I’ll go through in
order, of what absolutely must be mentioned in my novel. So much information.
What I feel, what I see, how all of this even is. It’ll soon be a month already since
I’ve been this Spirit, since I’ve been in this nirvana, if it can be called that.
America. But precisely when I understood a certain something, on March 9th at
the Nine Inch Nails concert. And the next day, or when I went off into nowhere
there, renouncing everything. That’s when I became this, what I now am — I shine.
I shine strongly. Right now I have a whole heap of notes, which I’ll go through in
order, of what absolutely must be mentioned in my novel. So much information.
What I feel, what I see, how all of this even is. It’ll soon be a month already since
I’ve been this Spirit, since I’ve been in this nirvana, if it can be called that.