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Posted: Wed Sep 16, 2026 8:47 am
Possibly I’ll repeat myself, but that’s how it’s supposed to be, that I may repeat
myself. It’s normal.
Notes. What important things have I recorded lately? Ah, well, all right, I’ll speak
without the notes for now. I was just talking with Big Alexander, that is, today. He’s
delighted with me, naturally. I’ll probably share it outright, of course, without
names, because I mustn’t — this is a book, after all. I’ll share the story. That is,
Big Alexander asks: “How has my state been this past month, since the moment I
attended the NIN concert on March 9th,” and on the 10th I went off into nowhere,
and from that moment I’ve been in the Spirit. I told him that just a little bit, one
time, I was thrown off track, just a little. Big Alexander asked me what happened.
I met, I say, with a certain celebrity, an acquaintance, whom five years ago I’d
already warned him that they’d deceive him out of money, swindle him out of
money, would tempt him, that he’d lose everything. And that’s just how it turned
out for him over these 5 years. And for the course of a year he’d been angling to
meet with me, so that I’d help him, give him a hint on how to get back on the path
from scratch and what to do for it. And this person is very lost, there’s no energy
in him, all full of doubts. Everything’s bad with him. No money, nothing. And so it
turns out I was there giving him drink, feeding him, nursing him, tending to him,
and so on. And we agreed that we might do something together. We agreed that I’d
help him make a book for children. But the paradox is that, you see, the person
flew in to me for a week, and he had difficulties with payments, and it turns out
I’m there covering both his food and souvenirs at my own expense, everything,
everything, everything. He says: “I’ll pay it back later.” I answer: “Don’t worry, it’s
all okay, I’ll pay for it all.” So, and it turns out this person is such that swindlers
have all been fleecing him for 5 years already, everyone uses him, everyone pushes
him towards terrible sins, I won’t list them. After which he’s all lost, and it’s as if
there’s no life energy left in him at all anymore. And I support him all the time,
protect him, give him everything, and in return he gives nothing.
That is, he, figuratively speaking, drove around to a whole heap of coaches
all over the world, not very good ones — rather, I’d say that they all fall under
criminal charges, those gurus he visited. And so he paid some kind of insane
money there, and me — not once, can you imagine — he paid nothing. And now,
myself. It’s normal.
Notes. What important things have I recorded lately? Ah, well, all right, I’ll speak
without the notes for now. I was just talking with Big Alexander, that is, today. He’s
delighted with me, naturally. I’ll probably share it outright, of course, without
names, because I mustn’t — this is a book, after all. I’ll share the story. That is,
Big Alexander asks: “How has my state been this past month, since the moment I
attended the NIN concert on March 9th,” and on the 10th I went off into nowhere,
and from that moment I’ve been in the Spirit. I told him that just a little bit, one
time, I was thrown off track, just a little. Big Alexander asked me what happened.
I met, I say, with a certain celebrity, an acquaintance, whom five years ago I’d
already warned him that they’d deceive him out of money, swindle him out of
money, would tempt him, that he’d lose everything. And that’s just how it turned
out for him over these 5 years. And for the course of a year he’d been angling to
meet with me, so that I’d help him, give him a hint on how to get back on the path
from scratch and what to do for it. And this person is very lost, there’s no energy
in him, all full of doubts. Everything’s bad with him. No money, nothing. And so it
turns out I was there giving him drink, feeding him, nursing him, tending to him,
and so on. And we agreed that we might do something together. We agreed that I’d
help him make a book for children. But the paradox is that, you see, the person
flew in to me for a week, and he had difficulties with payments, and it turns out
I’m there covering both his food and souvenirs at my own expense, everything,
everything, everything. He says: “I’ll pay it back later.” I answer: “Don’t worry, it’s
all okay, I’ll pay for it all.” So, and it turns out this person is such that swindlers
have all been fleecing him for 5 years already, everyone uses him, everyone pushes
him towards terrible sins, I won’t list them. After which he’s all lost, and it’s as if
there’s no life energy left in him at all anymore. And I support him all the time,
protect him, give him everything, and in return he gives nothing.
That is, he, figuratively speaking, drove around to a whole heap of coaches
all over the world, not very good ones — rather, I’d say that they all fall under
criminal charges, those gurus he visited. And so he paid some kind of insane
money there, and me — not once, can you imagine — he paid nothing. And now,