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— I’m going to cross you out right now, and that’s it. I’ve had it with all this.
That is, either you knock it off right now, or that’s it, and you go to the bottom,
there where you are now, and I won’t pull you out anymore.
— Well, but you said we could discuss the book there.
— Yes, but you understand that we’ve kind of already discussed where we’re
publishing it. What are you, a little fool? Just think about me even a little bit.
That is, you want to put me in an awkward position, that here I’ve kind of come
to an agreement with the publishing house, and then I’ll tell them: “No, sorry,
here we’ve got some capricious little boy who’s already wanted something else,
because someone whispered something to him there.”
And you see, what’s his problem? He’s got no core of his own at all, no opinion
of his own, he doesn’t understand what’s good, what’s bad. One whisperer told
him one thing, another whisperer told him another, I said something. For him
all these opinions are the same, and people are all the same to him. That is, that’s
how much he’s in the darkness, that is, in chaos, can you imagine? That is, he
doesn’t even understand who’s higher, who’s lower, which offer is better, which
is worse, and so everyone fleeces him his whole life, can you imagine. And what
happens with me? And in that moment I stop myself, when I’m already starting
to snap. And I understand that I’m making this book not for him. And though
he behaves like a scoundrel, I’m making this book not for him. I’m making this
book for children. And not for myself, and not for him, but for children. And
that it kind of doesn’t matter what kind of person he is. And it costs me nothing
to just go into my creative state, and in the Spirit make a bright, kind book for
all the children of the CIS. And him — who cares, let’s say he even swindles me
later, says that it’s his book, or doesn’t pay anything there. Well, who cares. I’m
making it, can you imagine, at my own expense. It doesn’t matter. I’m kind of — it
all doesn’t matter anymore.
And so when I did this, and when I told Big Alexander about it, he was shocked.
He said that here it is, here’s this wisdom of mine, and how I’ve finally grown.
And the book, can you imagine, radiates. It’s so interactive. In the kind of format
I had before: “The Diary of Circumstances,” with tasks there, advice, hints, a
kind of path-journey. Very interesting. Well, again, it kind of may not happen,
That is, either you knock it off right now, or that’s it, and you go to the bottom,
there where you are now, and I won’t pull you out anymore.
— Well, but you said we could discuss the book there.
— Yes, but you understand that we’ve kind of already discussed where we’re
publishing it. What are you, a little fool? Just think about me even a little bit.
That is, you want to put me in an awkward position, that here I’ve kind of come
to an agreement with the publishing house, and then I’ll tell them: “No, sorry,
here we’ve got some capricious little boy who’s already wanted something else,
because someone whispered something to him there.”
And you see, what’s his problem? He’s got no core of his own at all, no opinion
of his own, he doesn’t understand what’s good, what’s bad. One whisperer told
him one thing, another whisperer told him another, I said something. For him
all these opinions are the same, and people are all the same to him. That is, that’s
how much he’s in the darkness, that is, in chaos, can you imagine? That is, he
doesn’t even understand who’s higher, who’s lower, which offer is better, which
is worse, and so everyone fleeces him his whole life, can you imagine. And what
happens with me? And in that moment I stop myself, when I’m already starting
to snap. And I understand that I’m making this book not for him. And though
he behaves like a scoundrel, I’m making this book not for him. I’m making this
book for children. And not for myself, and not for him, but for children. And
that it kind of doesn’t matter what kind of person he is. And it costs me nothing
to just go into my creative state, and in the Spirit make a bright, kind book for
all the children of the CIS. And him — who cares, let’s say he even swindles me
later, says that it’s his book, or doesn’t pay anything there. Well, who cares. I’m
making it, can you imagine, at my own expense. It doesn’t matter. I’m kind of — it
all doesn’t matter anymore.
And so when I did this, and when I told Big Alexander about it, he was shocked.
He said that here it is, here’s this wisdom of mine, and how I’ve finally grown.
And the book, can you imagine, radiates. It’s so interactive. In the kind of format
I had before: “The Diary of Circumstances,” with tasks there, advice, hints, a
kind of path-journey. Very interesting. Well, again, it kind of may not happen,