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and consequently it won’t work. Whereas I sincerely, really, one hundred percent
renounced everything in my head. But you see, even I couldn’t do it simply by
sitting in the room, at the table, simply talking myself into it. That is, all the
same I needed to say goodbye to everyone and at least step out onto the street,
into nowhere. And when I stepped out, that was already enough, it didn’t even
take any number of days. And from that moment I became the Spirit, a star, and
ended up in the world of the Spirit, as I call it. Maybe later I’ll call it something
else somehow. When you have no thoughts at all, you don’t recall and can’t focus
on the past, as if it doesn’t exist, and you can’t plan and think about the future.
That is, there’s neither the one nor the other. You’re simply something between
them. Throughout the entire eleventh volume of the novel “Alternative History”
I describe this. I share memories of how it was for me before and how it’s all
now begun to manifest for me. As I understand it, the whole eleventh volume is
devoted to this theme. It’s very interesting, it’s just wow.
Beginning from March tenth, for a whole month, every day I was in the Spirit and
didn’t lose this state at all. All this time I was recording it in notes and recording
everything here, in the eleventh volume of the novel. And it was as if the Will of
God was within me, which also gets highlighted for me lately, even today. And it’s
as if I let it in, and I’m not there, I need nothing. As nature, as the feelings tell
me, that’s how I’ll act. That’s how I lived, somehow. And it got highlighted for me
that simply some appearance of mine is enough for something to ignite in people,
to flare up, and so on. And one of the things the Spirit, nature, the system — I
don’t know how to call it correctly — pushed me towards… That I simply need to
perform online and simply tell about how I spent this month in the Spirit. Not
even to tell it technically, but simply to tell it. And this will be enough. And it’s
curious that when I was telling it live, then both I and all the listeners from various
corners of the earth, everyone felt this state. And precisely felt how, from some
part of the account, this Spirit, this feeling would now intensify many, many times
over, now fade a little. Then intensify again, then fade again, depending on what
I’m telling. And in those moments where I’d been more in the Spirit over the
month, the ones that were the strongest — consequently, something emanated
from me from them too, and all the readers felt this. I asked for responses,
for feedback, and almost every reader said that everyone was getting drowsy,
renounced everything in my head. But you see, even I couldn’t do it simply by
sitting in the room, at the table, simply talking myself into it. That is, all the
same I needed to say goodbye to everyone and at least step out onto the street,
into nowhere. And when I stepped out, that was already enough, it didn’t even
take any number of days. And from that moment I became the Spirit, a star, and
ended up in the world of the Spirit, as I call it. Maybe later I’ll call it something
else somehow. When you have no thoughts at all, you don’t recall and can’t focus
on the past, as if it doesn’t exist, and you can’t plan and think about the future.
That is, there’s neither the one nor the other. You’re simply something between
them. Throughout the entire eleventh volume of the novel “Alternative History”
I describe this. I share memories of how it was for me before and how it’s all
now begun to manifest for me. As I understand it, the whole eleventh volume is
devoted to this theme. It’s very interesting, it’s just wow.
Beginning from March tenth, for a whole month, every day I was in the Spirit and
didn’t lose this state at all. All this time I was recording it in notes and recording
everything here, in the eleventh volume of the novel. And it was as if the Will of
God was within me, which also gets highlighted for me lately, even today. And it’s
as if I let it in, and I’m not there, I need nothing. As nature, as the feelings tell
me, that’s how I’ll act. That’s how I lived, somehow. And it got highlighted for me
that simply some appearance of mine is enough for something to ignite in people,
to flare up, and so on. And one of the things the Spirit, nature, the system — I
don’t know how to call it correctly — pushed me towards… That I simply need to
perform online and simply tell about how I spent this month in the Spirit. Not
even to tell it technically, but simply to tell it. And this will be enough. And it’s
curious that when I was telling it live, then both I and all the listeners from various
corners of the earth, everyone felt this state. And precisely felt how, from some
part of the account, this Spirit, this feeling would now intensify many, many times
over, now fade a little. Then intensify again, then fade again, depending on what
I’m telling. And in those moments where I’d been more in the Spirit over the
month, the ones that were the strongest — consequently, something emanated
from me from them too, and all the readers felt this. I asked for responses,
for feedback, and almost every reader said that everyone was getting drowsy,