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everyone felt like sleeping, many were falling asleep. This too is very curious,
which I decided to put on record. But I also felt and saw whom this light doesn’t
enter. There are people whom the light doesn’t enter. It’s simply as if they’re
impenetrable. Their lens is switched off, and the light doesn’t enter there, as if
it’s black, or switched off, or isn’t there inside. This light entered into everyone,
but into some people it didn’t enter. And I felt this… And I felt that it’s from the
mind, from fear, from doubts. Before, when I was writing my first rough-draft
books, I called this “closed people.” That those whom the light enters — they’re
open, and those whom the light doesn’t enter — closed. But again, this can be
called any other words, but at one time I called it this way, so that it would be
clear to everyone.
And when I gave the presentation on April 9th, then the next day I wake up and
feel that I’m not in the Spirit. And I don’t understand why. But I’m not in the
Spirit from the very morning… That is, the whole month I was in the Spirit,
and here the Spirit disappeared. Of course, I immediately began to look for the
cause, the cause-and-effect connection. I supposed that it’s probably because a
guest had come to visit me. Probably because of him. But why, over the course of
a month, did no one jam me and I didn’t lose the Spirit because of anyone, and
here, because of one person, I lost the Spirit? It’s strange… The guest had come
even before the presentation, and I was in the Spirit, and everything was okay.
But the Spirit vanished precisely after the presentation. As if I needed to give the
presentation, and the Spirit left. At first I supposed it was because of a person,
because of the guest. Then I supposed that I’d broken the rules and overdone it
with plans for the near future, and the Spirit doesn’t like that. And when I began to
reflect on this theme, I recorded all of it in notes and understood that, probably,
since the eleventh volume is devoted to the theme of the Spirit, then I need to
break this theme down from all sides. And not only when I share this state, and
not only when I describe how to let this Spirit in, but it’s also necessary that
both I and the readers know how one can easily lose it. And what one shouldn’t
do, so as not to lose it. And since I’m the main hero and live through all of this,
then everything that happened, it was bound to happen — this is according to the
book’s scenario. That is, there can be no mistake of mine, everything was bound
to be just so.
which I decided to put on record. But I also felt and saw whom this light doesn’t
enter. There are people whom the light doesn’t enter. It’s simply as if they’re
impenetrable. Their lens is switched off, and the light doesn’t enter there, as if
it’s black, or switched off, or isn’t there inside. This light entered into everyone,
but into some people it didn’t enter. And I felt this… And I felt that it’s from the
mind, from fear, from doubts. Before, when I was writing my first rough-draft
books, I called this “closed people.” That those whom the light enters — they’re
open, and those whom the light doesn’t enter — closed. But again, this can be
called any other words, but at one time I called it this way, so that it would be
clear to everyone.
And when I gave the presentation on April 9th, then the next day I wake up and
feel that I’m not in the Spirit. And I don’t understand why. But I’m not in the
Spirit from the very morning… That is, the whole month I was in the Spirit,
and here the Spirit disappeared. Of course, I immediately began to look for the
cause, the cause-and-effect connection. I supposed that it’s probably because a
guest had come to visit me. Probably because of him. But why, over the course of
a month, did no one jam me and I didn’t lose the Spirit because of anyone, and
here, because of one person, I lost the Spirit? It’s strange… The guest had come
even before the presentation, and I was in the Spirit, and everything was okay.
But the Spirit vanished precisely after the presentation. As if I needed to give the
presentation, and the Spirit left. At first I supposed it was because of a person,
because of the guest. Then I supposed that I’d broken the rules and overdone it
with plans for the near future, and the Spirit doesn’t like that. And when I began to
reflect on this theme, I recorded all of it in notes and understood that, probably,
since the eleventh volume is devoted to the theme of the Spirit, then I need to
break this theme down from all sides. And not only when I share this state, and
not only when I describe how to let this Spirit in, but it’s also necessary that
both I and the readers know how one can easily lose it. And what one shouldn’t
do, so as not to lose it. And since I’m the main hero and live through all of this,
then everything that happened, it was bound to happen — this is according to the
book’s scenario. That is, there can be no mistake of mine, everything was bound
to be just so.