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Posted: Wed Sep 16, 2026 8:51 am
And so it turns out that from April 10th to this day I’m not in the Spirit. Not a
star. I don’t shine. My body doesn’t burn, my palms don’t burn. This power isn’t
there, no. It vanished. And then I began to record because of what and why. It’s
only a path, this that I’m describing. The causes that I’ll describe, they may not
actually be the causes, but it’s the path of how I searched for the cause. I’ll list
which thoughts first came into my head. At first I reckoned it’s because of the
friend who came, because I’d told him that I’d attend to him after I’d given the
presentation. And that until I give the presentation, I can’t get into anything at
all, and so on. And all this time I was in the Spirit. I gave the presentation, and the
next day I fully switched over to this person, in order to devote time to him. And
it’s quite possible that the Spirit got lost because of this. Because this person isn’t
in the world of the Spirit. As I say, there are various people, who are in various
worlds. This person… he isn’t in the world of the Spirit. I earlier also mentioned
in my books that there are people who are attached specifically to only some one
world, and don’t jump around the other worlds. This is precisely such a person.
And maybe because of this I came down to him. That’s one of the versions.
The second theory: maybe the cause is that I heaped a pile of tasks onto myself.
And what tasks? Over the course of a month, trips to several different countries,
plus also all sorts of interviews there, meetings, clinics, jobs, and a lot of things.
And it’s all, right up to the wire, planned out for a whole month, for a whole two
even. And maybe from the fact that I wrote myself into all of this, and it happened
by accident… And from the fact that it hasn’t yet physically happened, but it’s
already lodged in my head that I’ve already got tasks scheduled every week two
months ahead — maybe this jammed me, suffocated me, and it’s precisely from
this that the Spirit left. This too was one of the versions.
There were other options too: maybe because I change locations, change city
and country, maybe this influenced it somehow. I took this on note too. But in
the first week I still kind of felt the Spirit a little, if you take into account the fact
that right now it’s April 22nd, and I lost the Spirit as of April 10th. It could still
somehow be traced. Or like a phantom, the memory of how I felt when I was in
the Spirit. And I recorded such notes for myself: you mustn’t yield to anyone for
the sake of something — this is a filter and safety. If you yield, then the game will
star. I don’t shine. My body doesn’t burn, my palms don’t burn. This power isn’t
there, no. It vanished. And then I began to record because of what and why. It’s
only a path, this that I’m describing. The causes that I’ll describe, they may not
actually be the causes, but it’s the path of how I searched for the cause. I’ll list
which thoughts first came into my head. At first I reckoned it’s because of the
friend who came, because I’d told him that I’d attend to him after I’d given the
presentation. And that until I give the presentation, I can’t get into anything at
all, and so on. And all this time I was in the Spirit. I gave the presentation, and the
next day I fully switched over to this person, in order to devote time to him. And
it’s quite possible that the Spirit got lost because of this. Because this person isn’t
in the world of the Spirit. As I say, there are various people, who are in various
worlds. This person… he isn’t in the world of the Spirit. I earlier also mentioned
in my books that there are people who are attached specifically to only some one
world, and don’t jump around the other worlds. This is precisely such a person.
And maybe because of this I came down to him. That’s one of the versions.
The second theory: maybe the cause is that I heaped a pile of tasks onto myself.
And what tasks? Over the course of a month, trips to several different countries,
plus also all sorts of interviews there, meetings, clinics, jobs, and a lot of things.
And it’s all, right up to the wire, planned out for a whole month, for a whole two
even. And maybe from the fact that I wrote myself into all of this, and it happened
by accident… And from the fact that it hasn’t yet physically happened, but it’s
already lodged in my head that I’ve already got tasks scheduled every week two
months ahead — maybe this jammed me, suffocated me, and it’s precisely from
this that the Spirit left. This too was one of the versions.
There were other options too: maybe because I change locations, change city
and country, maybe this influenced it somehow. I took this on note too. But in
the first week I still kind of felt the Spirit a little, if you take into account the fact
that right now it’s April 22nd, and I lost the Spirit as of April 10th. It could still
somehow be traced. Or like a phantom, the memory of how I felt when I was in
the Spirit. And I recorded such notes for myself: you mustn’t yield to anyone for
the sake of something — this is a filter and safety. If you yield, then the game will