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[Alexandr Korol]

What else was I recalling? In my books, when I wrote in my youth, in the book
“Paradox” — I didn’t know, after all, that it was the Spirit, but when I described
myself and this world, I said that if I leave a café, if I leave my phone there, that
is, forget it there, then I won’t go back for it, so as not to switch on the mind,
so as not to expend attention. I’ll simply go and somewhere along the way buy
the same one and go on. And if some conflict, some provocation happens, then
it’s only to bring me down to earth, to steal my attention. And that if a person
shortchanges me and asks for a thousand rubles that I don’t owe him, I’d rather
give him another five thousand rubles, just so that this person would leave me
alone. And that’s why, before, to all my enemies, when I had them, I’d say: “I’m
a little fool,” and give them big money. And people would take fright and run
away from me, because I don’t need a person to be near me for a long time and
go on trying to provoke me or steal my attention. That is, I mustn’t be distracted,
mustn’t get drawn in, so as not to come down to earth, to people. And before, I’d
buy my way out like that and wrote about it in my diaries. And I was astonished
when now I began to recall it all again — that before, it had all already been this
way. People who read my books back then, if someone happened to meet me
somewhere in life, they all wanted to observe how I live: what I eat, what I put on,
where I go, how I talk, what habits I have. Because, truly, back then I did it all not
with the mind, but I was this Spirit. Now I’m an adult, but back then I was little,
yet people saw that I’m somehow very far from simple. And everyone watched
me, why I choose something or act some way, or do something. I simply lived in
this world of the Spirit, and back then I kept a diary about it and recorded it all.
Now I’m coming back to this. It all began with that, and it all comes back to this.

I’d definitely recommend to everyone: the film “Nefarious,” the film “An
Interview with God.” I believe these two films are worth watching. In both of them
the Will of God is spoken of. It gets highlighted for me just everywhere, it’s some
kind of particular key. Maybe this is the very trick of it, that this Spirit… maybe
this is precisely what it is to be in the Spirit? When this will of God is within you.
When you want nothing for yourself, when you don’t think about the future and
don’t worry about the future, but at the same time you also don’t recall the past,
and don’t compare, don’t appraise anything, comparing it with the past. And
you have no grievances against anyone, no anger, no competition with anyone.