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[Alexandr Korol]

And you’re simply a zero, you’re here and now, you’re simply from God. And I
recall that I used to be like this, little. When some people wanted to discuss my
surname, first name, appearance, age, or something else, I always said: “Guys,
all your grievances are grievances against God. I didn’t choose any of it, I am as I
am, and that’s it.” I can’t have complexes, any grievances against you, and so on.
Everything is as it’s supposed to be. And even the fact that you exist and are saying
this to me means that God wants it so. That’s how it was for me before. Only back
then I didn’t use the word “God,” I’d more likely say the word “system” after all.

Ten or fifteen years ago too, when I was giving a presentation about my first book
and there gathered… Back then it was a small number of people, three hundred,
but that’s not the point. I was asked whether I’m not afraid of disgracing myself,
of making a mistake, of saying something wrong, or how I prepare, whether I get
nervous. And I said that none of this exists, that it’s all from the mind with you,
with people, whereas I am as I am. And if it’s fated for me by destiny to disgrace
myself, then I’ll disgrace myself at this presentation. If it’s needed by the scenario
that people should be glad of my presentation and grateful to me, then it’ll be so.
I can’t influence this in any way, it’ll already be as it’s supposed to be. That’s why
there’s no point in preparing. Whether I prepare or don’t — everything will be
according to the scenario all the same. So if God wants me to disgrace myself — I’ll
disgrace myself. If God wants everyone to be struck and happy, then it’ll be so.
When you’re in the Spirit, you live this way and feel yourself this way, and live by
such rules. This is how you perceive all of reality and all your affairs.

The Spirit shows me that I must once more speak about this example, about
“eating a spoonful for Mom.” Why do you lose the Spirit right away after this? It’s
not a sin, but all the same it leads you away from the Spirit, because it’s not by the
Spirit. What does the trap consist of? When you’re in the Spirit, then you orient
yourself only by feeling, this is the only rule — for it to respond inside, to kindle. If
it clenches inside, it means no. That’s it, only so. But a person who until recently
was living in the world of people, he has, by memory, the old rules of the game,
the old rules of life, how people live. And in the old rules of the world of people,
where there’s still black and white, where there’s still bad, good, and all of that,
and the future, and the past — for those who have all this, there among people