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Chapter 22. The Spirit Returned
Yesterday the Spirit returned, and now I’m in the Spirit. But I’ll put it this way:
it’s as if I was in the Spirit the whole time, but there was simply something else,
I don’t know what it is. I don’t know why they showed me this. I don’t know what
conclusions I’m supposed to draw. But now I’m in the Spirit again… Maybe for
comparison, maybe it was some kind of reboot, I don’t know. I didn’t even write
it into my notes — right now, in your presence, where I write for the eleventh
volume. I’ll write down for myself that yesterday the Spirit returned. How and
why? And when did it happen? Well, probably it happened after I answered some
readers’ questions. Although no, this too is so unusual — it was right by ascending
degrees, that is, it began as early as yesterday morning. Then I was at a massage
for two hours, and from this something began to reawaken even more strongly
again, as if the light began to appear, because I was within myself. Then after the
massage… That is, the first sign that the Spirit had returned — I didn’t want to
take out the phone and use the phone, and it’s as if the focus is on myself again,
on the feeling of myself, but at the same time there are no thoughts either about
the future or about the past, although there seemed to be no thoughts anyway.
Well, I’m simply describing how I felt myself yesterday.
Then I boiled some water and did this pouring of water into the kettle, from
the kettle into the mug and from the mug into the kettle. I did this with the tea,
and from this a strong radiating went out again. Plus I also drank it, and then
turned on the series “Dark Matter” — how is it in Russian? “Black Matter,” if
I’m not mistaken. There’s an actor in the leading role who was in the film “The
Great Gatsby,” the one with Leonardo DiCaprio, the second… That’s it, with that
actor. The series is low-quality, illogical, shot as if by schoolchildren. Shot very
cheaply. And a cold energy like that, like from Scandinavian series and from
“Black Mirror.” But since I was in the Spirit, I couldn’t care less about it, but
still, the fact of it. What next? I watched this idea of multiverses, but, of course,
they present it all very badly, as if for schoolchildren. And after this I lay down
to sleep, woke up today. Again I’m in the Spirit, everything’s felt, as if I radiate
and it radiates from me, and here this ray comes at me again, as if into me.
As if my attention… I began to compare — it had really been stolen by something.
Yesterday the Spirit returned, and now I’m in the Spirit. But I’ll put it this way:
it’s as if I was in the Spirit the whole time, but there was simply something else,
I don’t know what it is. I don’t know why they showed me this. I don’t know what
conclusions I’m supposed to draw. But now I’m in the Spirit again… Maybe for
comparison, maybe it was some kind of reboot, I don’t know. I didn’t even write
it into my notes — right now, in your presence, where I write for the eleventh
volume. I’ll write down for myself that yesterday the Spirit returned. How and
why? And when did it happen? Well, probably it happened after I answered some
readers’ questions. Although no, this too is so unusual — it was right by ascending
degrees, that is, it began as early as yesterday morning. Then I was at a massage
for two hours, and from this something began to reawaken even more strongly
again, as if the light began to appear, because I was within myself. Then after the
massage… That is, the first sign that the Spirit had returned — I didn’t want to
take out the phone and use the phone, and it’s as if the focus is on myself again,
on the feeling of myself, but at the same time there are no thoughts either about
the future or about the past, although there seemed to be no thoughts anyway.
Well, I’m simply describing how I felt myself yesterday.
Then I boiled some water and did this pouring of water into the kettle, from
the kettle into the mug and from the mug into the kettle. I did this with the tea,
and from this a strong radiating went out again. Plus I also drank it, and then
turned on the series “Dark Matter” — how is it in Russian? “Black Matter,” if
I’m not mistaken. There’s an actor in the leading role who was in the film “The
Great Gatsby,” the one with Leonardo DiCaprio, the second… That’s it, with that
actor. The series is low-quality, illogical, shot as if by schoolchildren. Shot very
cheaply. And a cold energy like that, like from Scandinavian series and from
“Black Mirror.” But since I was in the Spirit, I couldn’t care less about it, but
still, the fact of it. What next? I watched this idea of multiverses, but, of course,
they present it all very badly, as if for schoolchildren. And after this I lay down
to sleep, woke up today. Again I’m in the Spirit, everything’s felt, as if I radiate
and it radiates from me, and here this ray comes at me again, as if into me.
As if my attention… I began to compare — it had really been stolen by something.