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Posted: Wed Sep 16, 2026 9:51 am
When you want to get acquainted with someone — a man, a woman, no matter
what for, maybe it’s some artist or writer, like me — then if you already have some
hidden intentions, benefits, and so on, because of this you don’t manage to get
acquainted with this person, as an example. Because the system feels all of this.
And consequently, this inner hidden “wanting” and “I want” of yours — what you
want to obtain from everyone and everything — because of this nothing is given
to you. This is one more thing that absolutely ought to be added to the eleventh
volume of the novel “Alternative History.” For in this novel I unfold the theme
of what the Spirit is, being in the Spirit, how it works and what the difference is,
when you’re in the Spirit and when you’re not.
But this eclipse that happened, I don’t know what it is. I still haven’t found the
answer… I hope I’ll find it. If there’s an answer, naturally, I’ll include it all in
the eleventh volume. Possibly I’ll call Big Alexander, and he’ll explain to me
what it is. But all at once — the whole world changed, and I changed. Maybe I
made some decision? In childhood, when I wrote my first diaries, when I was
in the Spirit… I wrote about this in the book, when I was 20 years old. It’s one
thing now, a kid is 20 years old, he’s boosted through social media and has seen
and read all sorts of things there. But I, imagine, in 2010–2011 — for that time,
how differently people lived altogether and how they related to things and to
money, and to everything. Back then everyone was still at a job, on salaries,
back then there weren’t really any bloggers and all these celebrities yet. Back
then I wrote in the book: “Guys, do you know how the alchemists really came
to know the philosopher’s stone and alchemy? Their soul and the world around
them and their possibilities would change. And all without leaving the house.
They only needed to sit at home with a little sheet of paper and a pen, just as I
do it. Because you’ve only to make a certain decision in your head, to come to
an agreement with yourself, that is, with the system, and everything at once
transforms and changes. And right away a little ring on the phone from someone.”
That is, that’s how it works. Just like magic. Possibly I made some decision
yesterday. But which one? I don’t know what it is. Or was it some kind of natural
phenomenon that jammed me like that? I don’t know. Or maybe now everyone
will be ending up in this darkness, and it’s simply that someone comes out of this
labyrinth faster, someone stays there longer and takes longer to come out of it.
Maybe this is some one of the stages of transformation.
what for, maybe it’s some artist or writer, like me — then if you already have some
hidden intentions, benefits, and so on, because of this you don’t manage to get
acquainted with this person, as an example. Because the system feels all of this.
And consequently, this inner hidden “wanting” and “I want” of yours — what you
want to obtain from everyone and everything — because of this nothing is given
to you. This is one more thing that absolutely ought to be added to the eleventh
volume of the novel “Alternative History.” For in this novel I unfold the theme
of what the Spirit is, being in the Spirit, how it works and what the difference is,
when you’re in the Spirit and when you’re not.
But this eclipse that happened, I don’t know what it is. I still haven’t found the
answer… I hope I’ll find it. If there’s an answer, naturally, I’ll include it all in
the eleventh volume. Possibly I’ll call Big Alexander, and he’ll explain to me
what it is. But all at once — the whole world changed, and I changed. Maybe I
made some decision? In childhood, when I wrote my first diaries, when I was
in the Spirit… I wrote about this in the book, when I was 20 years old. It’s one
thing now, a kid is 20 years old, he’s boosted through social media and has seen
and read all sorts of things there. But I, imagine, in 2010–2011 — for that time,
how differently people lived altogether and how they related to things and to
money, and to everything. Back then everyone was still at a job, on salaries,
back then there weren’t really any bloggers and all these celebrities yet. Back
then I wrote in the book: “Guys, do you know how the alchemists really came
to know the philosopher’s stone and alchemy? Their soul and the world around
them and their possibilities would change. And all without leaving the house.
They only needed to sit at home with a little sheet of paper and a pen, just as I
do it. Because you’ve only to make a certain decision in your head, to come to
an agreement with yourself, that is, with the system, and everything at once
transforms and changes. And right away a little ring on the phone from someone.”
That is, that’s how it works. Just like magic. Possibly I made some decision
yesterday. But which one? I don’t know what it is. Or was it some kind of natural
phenomenon that jammed me like that? I don’t know. Or maybe now everyone
will be ending up in this darkness, and it’s simply that someone comes out of this
labyrinth faster, someone stays there longer and takes longer to come out of it.
Maybe this is some one of the stages of transformation.