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[Alexandr Korol]

strange happened, something could flare up, burn out, when I’m in this Spirit,
animals can drop dead, birds can crash into the glass of the house — and here a
bird begins to knock its beak right into the glass, exactly some ten minutes later…
It’s all one after another like that, and it’s as if everything’s falling apart, you know,
everything drops out of your hands. That is, for me to drop something there — that
doesn’t happen. Well, in this case it wasn’t I who dropped it, but all the same for
me it’s a sign that it’s as if something emanates from us, some chemistry occurs,
irradiation, when something of ours has dropped. And this was all happening
all these days. I couldn’t make the book, couldn’t do anything. But I calmed the
guys and said that it’s all for the good all the same. It’s power, energy — that is, it’s
good… It only heals, irradiates, transforms. It’s power and knowledge, and after
this the world will be perceived differently too, again there’ll be new discoveries.

I kept deciding what to do next. And I say that I already feel so bad, in a good
sense. Bad in the sense that I already understand: if I don’t switch off this Spirit
now, then that’s it, I’ll croak. And there’s nothing to jam it with, nothing to jam
it with at all. Nothing. It’s all as if after a place of power. I remember, in 2010 I
described that you eat food, and it’s as if tasteless, you eat, don’t eat, but it’s as
if it’s not there, it’s empty. Whatever you drink, it too doesn’t affect you, doesn’t
work. And I drink whiskey, and it doesn’t work at all in any way, as if I hadn’t
drunk. And there’s nothing to jam it with. The intoxication is insane. I say that
something urgently needs to be done about this. Well, and consequently, I shut
myself in alone at home yesterday. I sat at home all day in a strange state, because
I keep waiting for the Spirit to leave, and it doesn’t leave — this intoxication —
and something else is happening with the body too. Today is the second day that
I’m alone. It’s already become a little bit easier. And it’s as if it also affects the
physical side, the body, the psyche — something’s happening. I’m telling this to
a friend today, and he says:

— But you forgot — it’s always like this with you, that after the Spirit comes this
mutation.

I think, that’s right, I always forget about it and even forget to say about it in the
book. I tell him: