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[Alexandr Korol]

something, but in the end it turns out that he’s insane. And this terrible truth
is revealed. And I didn’t understand why the system was highlighting it for
me, but I understand that it’s not for me, but rather it’s somehow timed to my
presentation, because the system always leads me. And imagine, I have a master
bedroom, and it turns out that I go to the bathroom through my bedroom. And
in my bedroom a film randomly switched on on YouTube — which one? “Shutter
Island.” I understand: all right, so I need to draw some conclusions from this.
And I understand that everything that comes into my head is correct — that is,
there can be no mistake. And here I understand that it’s as if people… If I reveal
the whole truth too openly to them, to these readers who are listening to me at
the presentation, everything as it is, then they’ll be in the same kind of horror
and get badly upset, like Leonardo DiCaprio in this film. They’ll understand that
all these years, all these five or six years, or their whole life, they were in a deep
delusion, in darkness. And that I need to, as it were, remove this illusion from
them, take the darkness off them, but do it carefully, so that people wouldn’t get
frightened. And it’s as if I was shown this. And I felt that my mood somehow
changed, that something’s happening to me. And when I began to perform, at first
what did the system decide to do through me? That I must, all the same, recall
the whole story of my novel, starting from the first volume. Such an accelerated
path through my novel, with my help. And I must, as it were, lead the readers’
attention through my whole novel, and time is limited — there’s a maximum of
only two hours for all of it. That’s what I promised, that the presentation would
be an hour and a half to two hours. And I understand that here it’s not the time
for the Spirit, which I’m supposed to shine with and do something, but that
this is more important first, as a preparation. And I understand perfectly well
that, probably, out of these thousand people, probably about eight hundred
definitely haven’t read all the volumes of the novel “Alternative History.” And
what do I do? I tell about the first volume, tell about the second, tell about the
third volume quickly, about the fourth, about the fifth, about the sixth and
seventh, about the eighth volume, about the ninth. I’m surprised myself at how
the system controls me: what needs to be left out, and what needs to be paid
attention to and highlighted. That is, it’s very interesting, how and what precisely
was selected as the key thing from all these volumes for my listeners, readers.
It’s very curious, very.