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[Alexandr Korol]

And so I left home and began to feel so unusual, as if I’m “without mind,” and “zero,” and here and now, and it’s all one day. And back then I began to write books, and people who felt the same way all stumbled upon this book, because they didn’t understand what was happening with them, because they can’t focus on anything and feel very strange. It was already happening back then, and then it went as it went, right on some kind of increasing curve. And maybe now it’ll be the same: I’ll now again become this God, the observer, the eight — and since I’m where the star is, this hierarchy, then in that summit I’m up at the top there. So it turns out that those who are the star will feel it first. Those who are sun-moon will feel it next, after, let’s say, half a year. And then further, these worlds: morning-day-evening-night, that is, the four elements, the four animals — then it’ll reach them, but already in three years. And everyone in the end will gradually cross over like this into the eighth corner, there to me. Maybe it’ll be like this. If it’s like this, then it means I must already fully awaken now, and all the rest within three years. Maybe it’ll be like this. Or there’s the option that it’ll all be simultaneous — that I won’t yet turn into anything, into anyone, and won’t yet become the chief observer, and maybe I’ll still be heading towards this for three years, and then something will happen in the world, and we’ll all simultaneously get into this eighth corner. Maybe it’ll be like this. I don’t know what the system will present me with today. It gives me hints every day. So you understand: every day I feel exactly the same as I felt when I was finishing the first volume of “Alternative History,” when I deciphered the matrix every day, when the Spirit talked with me, when it showed me everything about everything, showed me the future, when my whole body was wracked and I didn’t understand what was happening to me. And likewise the whole second volume. And likewise in the third volume it was so, when the Spirit is steering me outright. And now it steers me so that I literally… That is, I must sit down with the book starting tomorrow, read the whole eleventh volume again, everything I’ve already written in draft. And do all the illustrations, all the corrections, already in the Spirit — that is, it’s already doing all of this through me. That is, right now I’m not I. That is, that Alex who is Alex isn’t there. Right now I’m the Spirit, I radiate very strongly. I don’t understand how much time has passed, what the air temperature is — I don’t know any of it. And while I write, I can forget that someone’s waiting for me or that someone was supposed to write to me. And now I understand that probably