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Posted: Fri Sep 22, 2023 6:50 am
I seemed to have been thrown back into the material world. And the system makes it so that all my relatives, all my old acquaintances, start to put pressure on me to ‘sort my life out’ and to stop acting so strangely. To stop being such an outcast. I look wretched; I don’t have a girlfriend, I don’t have a car or an apartment. I don’t study or go to work. And in the end, the pressure overwhelms me, and I start giving people what they want. I fully immersed myself in the social and material frequencies whilst continuing to write and analyze the data I had accumulated in my spare time. I’m earning money, building relationships, dressing fashionably, reacquainting myself with contemporary culture in general, and to my surprise, I’m making even more discoveries that support my previous work. You can’t just feel things; you need to find an explanation for them. Spiritual and material, everything is interconnected.
It wasn’t long before the balance tipped too far the other way, and I felt as if I was drowning in the material world. I could really feel my inner light fading in the midst of my new surroundings when along came my life raft.
I go out into the street, and a fan of my books recognizes me and says:
– Alexander, can I ask you a question?
– Sure, let’s go to a cafe and chat there.
– Are you not busy? Do you have time?
– Yes.
And I went out, not knowing if I’d ever return.
In order to disconnect from material influences, you need to do something out of the ordinary, like throw out your passport, change your phone, lose your keys, and just keep walking. I have done these kinds of things often. But I never told anyone because I didn’t think that they’d understand.
In the cafe, for some reason, it felt appropriate to share everything that had happened. And it turns out that he is a skeptic and an engineer, and he asks lots of questions and breaks everything down in the most pragmatic way:
It wasn’t long before the balance tipped too far the other way, and I felt as if I was drowning in the material world. I could really feel my inner light fading in the midst of my new surroundings when along came my life raft.
I go out into the street, and a fan of my books recognizes me and says:
– Alexander, can I ask you a question?
– Sure, let’s go to a cafe and chat there.
– Are you not busy? Do you have time?
– Yes.
And I went out, not knowing if I’d ever return.
In order to disconnect from material influences, you need to do something out of the ordinary, like throw out your passport, change your phone, lose your keys, and just keep walking. I have done these kinds of things often. But I never told anyone because I didn’t think that they’d understand.
In the cafe, for some reason, it felt appropriate to share everything that had happened. And it turns out that he is a skeptic and an engineer, and he asks lots of questions and breaks everything down in the most pragmatic way: