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[Alexandr Korol]

to it — probably that’s precisely the reason they’re pressuring me. Because it
doesn’t matter to me, whereas concreteness is demanded of me. And I rack my
brains over it. And now again, as I say, all of this is decisive. I keep running up
against the three unsolved tasks: the move, the other half, and the completion
of the eleventh volume, that is, the matrix.

I was just talking with Big Alexander. First of all, I told him that I’ve been feeling
very strange these last three days. As if I’ve fallen ill, but not fallen ill. He says:
“No, you’re not ill. A transformation is going on.” Some one-third portion of
people is crossing over into some other vibrations, and it’s those up top who
are doing this. And I tell him: “Yes, the voice told me that I have to lie down for
five days.” But the voice told me this yesterday. So, if you count from yesterday,
then five days. How do I feel? Big Alexander says that a lot of people have had
insomnia lately in general, and that’s true. I had it too. But now it’s gone. Right
now my situation is different. It’s just as if I have no strength and I want to sleep.
It’s hard to wake up, hard to get up, and I can’t sit at the desk for long, considering
that I always sit over the book for at least ten hours. Whereas now I can’t — it’s
as if all my muscles are relaxed, like when you have a fever, though there’s no
fever. And there’s also this state like when your ears are blocked, as with a fever.
When you’re ill with a cold, then it ends, and you think: “Oh, it’s as if I came out
of some vacuum, as if from underwater.” And right now I’m in the same kind
of vacuum, so that it’s hard for me to concentrate on working on the books. It’s
simply like — as I supposed before, too — that when a person is ill, when he has
a fever, it’s as if he ends up in a certain other frequency of vibrations, in which
he’s being healed. Something is being done to him. And right now I’m in some
such borderline frequency. That is, neither here nor there, as if I’ve frozen up
somewhere. And I understand that it’s some kind of transformation. I take it
calmly, easily. Big Alexander confirmed it. For this reason I still haven’t moved
anywhere, although the suitcases are all packed. He also said: because the World
Cup is going to be on now, it’s better to wait it out. So my move is postponed until
the championship ends. And that’s good, because I wanted to work on the books.

What else did Big Alexander say? He said that he communicated with those, with
the voice, or with the ones who rule everything. But this time he told some very