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[Alexandr Korol]

as if there are many shades of it. I started analyzing what I might have done to achieve or get out of this. I noticed that nothing affects this state. Whether I am alone or not, go outside, or meet someone, I remain in this state. It seems to exist on its own. It feels like a completely different me. But people tell me that I still emit energy, but now it seems... Imagine a person like a mannequin, and they used to have a crystal in their head. When light from the cosmos shone on it, it would refract and radiate in all directions from the head because the crystal was there. Now, it’s as if there’s no crystal in my head, but it’s in my chest. Maybe I am still connected to the cosmos, but not with my head, but with my chest. It’s very strange. Or maybe I’m now shown what it’s like to have the heart chakra activated. I always had the Sahasrara (crown chakra) activated, but now the heart chakra is turned on and the Sahasrara is turned off. Maybe. I haven’t worked with the heart chakra for a long time. Even when I worked with it, the Sahasrara was always active. Now it’s turned off. Why? My head is usually active, that’s why I always say it’s always buzzing. But now it’s turned off. Now my chest is activated. And this is definitely a chakra. Why? Because when the heart chakra is activated... It has never been so strongly activated before. No technique has ever activated it like this. The first sign that it’s a chakra is that the heat is not only in the chest but should be throughout the body. I feel like there’s a battery, like a mustard plaster, on my back and chest. It feels heavy and hot. It’s probably just the heart chakra activated. But I don’t feel any love. I don’t want to watch romantic movies. On the contrary, I feel like watching action movies. And what does action movies have to do with the heart chakra? It’s also strange, right? Very, very strange. I really noticed that action movies grab my attention. Action movies, why? But also, you know, action movies in your and my understanding are different things. It’s not action movies per se, but it feels like I want to watch something like “The Equalizer.” It’s as if I feel like that now. Or why I want to watch “The Bourne Identity”, or why I watched “Casino” yesterday. Because of this clarity, this precision, as if you’re calculating everything. It feels like that’s who I am now. Although I always seem to be like that, it’s now expressed more vividly. It’s very strange. So, let’s see.