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[Alexandr Korol]

this nature within me to manifest for a week, which is a mistake. It means that a Spirit has entered me, and I connected to it. The Spirit is nature, a system, a certain Wi-Fi source. It’s like it manifests physically in me with a delay because I was resisting it. This is a big mistake, and I note that such a mistake should not be made in the future. I need to allow the Spirit to manifest as it wants. But I had become accustomed to old habits, and the nature wanted something different, and I didn’t immediately notice it. Now I’m starting to notice and allow this Spirit to be, and it begins to open up within me. Interestingly, the Spirit feels somewhat material. I’m not sure how to describe it or set clear boundaries. The Spirit seems to be of the world of the mind, or it’s the Spirit of Justice. It feels very material. It’s as if all the music and films that resonated with me are imbued with a sense of war. It feels like the Spirit of War or Justice. I feel like a Viking, wanting to urge everyone “forward”, almost in a trance-like state with drums, as if we are advancing on someone. I see a contradiction here. On one hand, I want to watch warrior-like films and listen to orchestral, noisy music. On the other hand, I also want to listen to active music with high speed, like The Prodigy, and watch intense action films. I don’t understand if these are the same or different shades, or if they represent different things. But I recognize that a Spirit has awakened within me, and I need to identify it. It’s like a teacher, showing me something. I’ve also noticed that when I am in this Spirit, time seems to pass slowly, and I feel cold. Conversely, in other states, I feel hot even if the room is cold, or very cold when the room is warm. I noticed that when I am in different states, sometimes I feel very hot even if the room is very cold, and sometimes I feel intense cold even if the room is warm. I often feel cold, very cold. This also indicates that I might be in a world where the dynamics of light points are different, affecting how temperature is perceived. I’ve noticed that time seems to pass very slowly and it is very cold.
I understand that there is some Spirit or force that has been within me for a week or more. I didn’t notice it because when the Spirit enters, it can be at the lowest volume. Later, when needed, this volume, or rather power, can be increased. When I didn’t feed it, and it wasn’t needed because I was engaged in other tasks, it remained dormant inside me. But when I began to awaken it, it indeed woke up. Yesterday, I awakened it to the maximum. Suddenly, I had an association: perhaps, just as there are three religions, there might also be three worlds, three main Gods, or Spirits. Maybe one of these is within me. Given the sense of justice and warrior spirit, perhaps this is the Muslim God, Spirit. These thoughts arose.