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[Alexandr Korol]

because I must first become who I am supposed to be. And you, too, have not yet become who you are meant to be. Right now, we are still half in the old world – weak, sick, limited – but at the same time, we are already half in the “water.” Something is happening. A transition. That’s how I see it, and that’s what I keep thinking about.
How else do I see this? You know, until today, not a single miracle has happened. Everything still seems like an illusion, a trick. No one has met with me, no one from the spaceship has waved at me, not a single miracle has occurred. Either it’s because I need to finish writing my books first and not write about this yet, or it’s because things are not as literal as we would like to imagine. Maybe even Christ’s resurrection, the resurrection of the church, the Great Tribulation, and all the dead rising – maybe all of it will be veiled in the same way. It might turn out that the people who listened to Thom Yorke from my “Nameless” playlist (the world “without mind”) – that is the resurrection, and that’s all. And theoretically, that’s how it happens. But physically, just as we were all sitting on our chairs, we are still sitting. Or maybe, after all, it will be literal, physical, the way everyone wants it to be – naturally, just as I, as a human, would want it to be. That a spaceship actually arrives. I mean, wouldn’t something already have happened by now? Let’s see.
Let’s put it this way – 15 years ago, it might have been possible for you, me, and all my friends and relatives to assume that maybe I was just a boy with a wild imagination, that I was imagining things. Many people imagine things, many people are peculiar, lost in their illusions – some even see poltergeists at night. But now, with the naked eye, it’s obvious that all these four volumes and the fifth one I’ve started are a unique phenomenon filled with unique information. That this higher intelligence, this real computer, wrote all these books through people, which is why no one can understand where these books came from. And this computer wrote them specifically for people. And this computer has everything planned, and when the time comes, it will make sure that all people read these books. But again, if we assume that we should understand how people behave and who I am, it would probably be too harsh if the whole world started reading these books right now. Because they would devour me. So it turns out that I must disappear somewhere first, and only then should these books start being read, because otherwise, they’ll either kill me or imprison me.