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[Alexandr Korol]

fast-paced rhythm. But no matter what, rhythm and dynamics must shift – otherwise, there would be mental stagnation and cognitive decline. So when the material world and its rhythm align with a person who prefers material life, they live that half of the time happily, smoothly, step in step with it. But when the spiritual cycle begins, they stubbornly push forward, trying to maintain the same material-social pace, even though things suddenly stop working out. They keep doing the same thing, thinking that maybe it’s just a bad period or their mood is slightly off, never realizing that a spiritual cycle has begun – and they have no place in spirituality, nor do they want one. Yes, they might even get fleeting desires to be alone during the spiritual cycle. But they resist those feelings because they love the material world and refuse to embrace the shift. And when the spiritual cycle begins, they still resist it. They might even get the urge to read my book, but they think, “No, I don’t want to, because then I’ll just end up sitting at home reading all this and forgetting about money, work – I only want money.” They might have this thought process: “No, I don’t want any books, I don’t want any cosmic movies, I don’t want to think about God or the cosmos – no, no, no! I just want money, money, money.” So when the spiritual cycle starts, they resist it even more. They overload themselves with tasks, drown themselves in work, and numb themselves further. During spiritual periods, people who are deeply attached to the material world often drink more, smoke more, or, for example, eat excessively – anything to numb themselves even more, just so they don’t feel the spirituality that, by nature, is actually active within them during the spiritual cycle. This is another phenomenon I’ve observed. It’s a rough, undetailed observation, but it’s something real.
What I’ve noticed and would add is this: when this transition happens – again, for now, we’re dividing it into two cycles, spiritual and material, though there might actually be four cycles that we just don’t perceive clearly – I’ve observed certain signs when my material cycle begins. First, I don’t feel resistance toward social interactions. I don’t mind going to the store myself, and if I want to meet someone and they’re with friends, I say, “Don’t worry, I’ll come by.” This surprises people because when I’m in a spiritual phase, I can’t stand crowds, social gatherings, or noisy company. If I engage in that, I immediately lose clarity and awareness, and I don’t want to lose that. I have no interest in chaotic groups of people. But when my material cycle starts, I think,