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[Alexandr Korol]

understand it intellectually. You start controlling it with your mind. You don’t have the same feelings anymore, but you navigate by that imprint – that is the second cycle. The third cycle is also about feelings, but not the heart’s feeling – rather, the feelings between your legs – your instincts, sins. And suddenly, you become sensitive again, you think it’s good, but these feelings are bad – they are animal instincts. And they will be entirely opposite to your first cycle, where you felt through the heart, because everything here will be reversed. For example, in the first cycle, when you felt with your heart, you wanted a family – a simple example – a family, a healthy lifestyle, kindness, humility, meekness. You didn’t need much, you were happy with little things, content to sit at home making bracelets. Just imagine – I’m sitting here today making bracelets from different stones, and I enjoy it. The guys bought me antique Tibetan carnelian beads, old ones. I took them apart, added these silver skulls, which were made as copies, cast in silver. I’ve been assembling them all day today. Feels great. And so, for example, there is a spiritual period, a cycle where these kinds of thoughts come into your head. But when a similar spiritual cycle begins, only the opposite – meaning, a dark one – then suddenly you think, “Well, I feel like drinking and smoking – it’s from the heart, it’s a feeling, if I want it, then it’s allowed – it’s not from the mind.” That’s how the devil deceives you through feelings, and you start doing it. Then other feelings appear – you crave attention, usually in the form of lust, the need for social validation, the desire for attention on social media. These kinds of feelings emerge – the urge to overeat, indulge in bad habits, all sorts of vices. This self-indulgence, this laziness – it’s also a feeling, but as you see, it’s a bad one. So, it turns out there is always a mirrored, negative reflection of feelings. Just as there are virtues, there are also sins, instincts, lust – this is the reflection. And some people start trusting these feelings, completely forgetting about the first, bright spiritual cycle, forgetting about the material cycle where they had already set rules with their intellect. They could have held onto those rules and resisted these false feelings by relying on the structure of the second cycle. But no, they drown in the third cycle, in feelings. And then, when they sink deep enough, they even start reinforcing it with their intellect when the fourth cycle begins. But by then, their mind is completely different. It no longer remembers the intellect from the second cycle, where they had bright thoughts, where they knew they needed to learn a language, and finish writing a book. No, now their thoughts revolve around