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[Alexandr Korol]

But he was really displeased. And he had those moments. He told me, “Go to Moscow” — I didn’t go. He scolded me, said, “Moscow is for the strong,” something like that, that I needed to experience the material world, but instead I kept hiding among the white crows, being a white crow myself, or something like that. Then he also said, “Go to America,” and I did go to America then. And every time I wanted to live in Russia, he would tell me to leave. And every time I said I was for Russia, for Petersburg, he would say that I needed to think about the whole world, that I was limiting myself by always tying myself only to one city or country. He’d say, “What about all the other people, don’t you feel sorry for them?” Something like that, like, “What about them?” And back then, I couldn’t think on that scale — my world was just Petersburg. But he always wanted me to see the whole world and understand that I’m for the whole world, not just for Russia or Petersburg. What else? He had a lot of different stories. Like what Masha told me — the one who introduced me to her mother, Valentina — about what Valentina had told her. They said he was assembling some kind of helmet, that he was always studying something, just like I was, always trying to build something based on biblical scriptures, to create something, but the intelligence services wouldn’t let him. Later on, I started to get the sense, the understanding — and I talk about this further in the first volume of “Alternative History” — I started to feel like there was still someone behind him: some person or people who were watching over me through him, but not interfering. And I didn’t understand why they weren’t interfering. But it felt like there was someone else he was discussing me with, but he never mentioned them. As I understand it, it’s one person. I’ve had that feeling for a long time, and more recently, it even seemed like he started to talk about that person to me. Not directly, just in passing. He said, “Alex, you know I only talk to you and one other person, who’s abroad. He’s one of us too,” and that was it. And I thought, maybe that person abroad — that’s the one. Who that person is, I don’t know. What else did Big Alexander say? Well, back then he also... He somehow seemed to know all the secret Soviet organizations, I don’t know through whom. He said there was some head of a department that got disbanded, a department that handled all the anomalies, that they monitored everything, but now the department doesn’t exist. They want to bring it back now, but everyone is stupid — that’s more or less how he said it. And that they never listened to him, though he warned them