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[Alexandr Korol]

Someone who’s watched shows about psychics will say I’m a psychic. Someone who’s watched shows like “The Mentalist” will say that I’m just really good at psychology, even though I never studied it, never practiced it, and never read a single book on it. But I don’t know. And then, it happened that I got acquainted with the church early, and I’m grateful for that, of course. So, my immediate association was that I must be some kind of second coming. I’m serious. Well, it’s good that I don’t shout it out loud. And I had these thoughts when I was 20 years old. Naturally, all these thoughts were dispelled because Big Alexander told me, “Don’t think such nonsense at all.” And I said, “Alright, fine, I won’t think like that.” But he always scolded me and said, “What second coming?” But he said it with a different subtext. He always said this because he was regulating the moment of why I always relate myself to one religion, when I should, like, relate myself to all religions. And he says, “Why do you only relate yourself to Christianity?” Or when I spoke about Russia, about the future, he said, “Why only about Russia? The future should be for everyone, not just for Russia.” He made such remarks. Still, year after year, I didn’t know what to call myself. As I said, assumptions, thoughts from the guys around me when we were studying icons, they told me, “You must be the second coming,” well, yes, that happened, I’ll honestly admit it. Naturally, am I an idiot to believe in such things? And to even speak of myself like that, to believe in it — of course, I’m even afraid to think that way. But the guys were joking, it happened. But, you see, as it turned out, that’s not the case. Then there were moments, seriously, people said I was a mason, an illuminati, maybe even an alien. Then everyone started joking, guessing – but again, I’m saying, what else is there to grab onto, what can you compare it to – I started writing books about aliens, and everyone started calling me an alien. Well, what kind of alien am I? Where am I this alien? You know, the most serious thing is, when I finished the book “Three Paradoxes of a Creative Person” which I wrote by hand for over 10 years, I mean, it’s one thing to dictate it, to transfer it to text, but here I wrote the whole book by hand, it’s so thick, I wrote my conscious life in it. And there, I end the book by saying, you know, that book, it’s like “Alternative History”, only it’s like a rough draft scattered around, with scattered manuscripts, all mixed up and put together. And that’s what it was, so “Three Paradoxes of a Creative Person” – that’s what I trained on before taking on the novel “Alternative History”. So, everything that