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[Alexandr Korol]

can be taken from a person, how easily a person can start doubting. And okay, I’m using these small examples, but I’ll say it even more clearly. I’ve written more than 20 books, and still, just one photo — if I sit awkwardly and post a picture with a bottle of beer — people would stop believing in the books and in me. Why is that? That’s another question entirely. Naturally, it’s not about me or the books — it’s not even so much about the people. I’d probably even take their side. Life is just like that — there are traps everywhere, everyone is constantly on edge. You spend your whole life doubting everyone and everything, so triggering those doubts only takes a snap of the fingers, because people are already built from doubt. So, going back to the question about Big Alexander and whether he knows the outcome. Well, at certain moments, truly, when I’m decoding the matrix, he says, “Yes, yes, yes, you still need to do this and that,” and that’s it. And where does he know it from? Or, for example, again, he doesn’t know what I’m writing about, right? And imagine — I’m writing a volume about the Spirit of Death, the fifth volume, and he tells me that my final trial is Mara, the one who tempted Buddha. And he says, “You’re already at the threshold, but the last trial is the hardest — no one passes it.” How does he know I’m at that stage and that this is what’s happening? Just because he read somewhere in Buddhist texts that there’s Mara in Buddhism, in Hinduism — well, fine, there is. But that doesn’t mean he just guessed right that it’s suddenly about me. No, he knows it exactly. There was an interesting case when this Mara attacked me from all sides — if we put it in sacred terms. More in everyday words, let’s say people seemed filled with bile, like they had all snapped off the chain and were furious about everything. Didn’t matter if it was a courier, a delivery guy, a nanny, a driver — everyone seemed ready to destroy you. And when you see all of this, you see that it’s like the system is doing it directly, and you realize that it’s coming from nowhere, and you feel unsettled because you don’t know what to do. Should you respond with force and put everyone in their place? Or just run away from everyone and hide? Or what? And right then, when I was going through this trial, Big Alexander told me not to run away and not to argue with anyone, of course. He said there’s a third option. I asked what it was. And the third option, he said, is that fighting is pointless — you have to accept it so that it stops irritating, hurting, scaring, or offending you. So I had to accept that this is part of the world, part of life — all this unruliness. And yes, maybe because I’m going