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[Alexandr Korol]

of my own — because how much can you take? People have cockroaches in their heads. And all this time, I just want to go into the Spirit, all this time I want to go into “without mind,” all this time I want to escape society. That’s the truth. Going back to your question, what you asked me — about the soul and the Spirit — you just mixed together a few things there. You’re asking me now about this 95% soul and so on... Yes, I used to claim that my matrix, as if, was 95% soul. And maybe that’s why I couldn’t yet be 100% without mind. And that if I truly decoded the matrix, then the Spirit would enter me. And it’s quite possible that when I finished the first volume of “Alternative History,” that’s exactly when I decoded the matrix in my mind — and that’s when the Spirit entered me. And in the second volume of “Alternative History,” I assembled that matrix in order to show what it was that I had decoded at the end of the first volume. Back then I assembled it and showed what my soul looked like — as if it were some kind of inner labyrinth, inside which the Spirit resides. That is, for the light to be within me, this matrix had to be within me. If you think about it technically, that kind of idea makes sense, and that place — that space — does exist. So yes, it’s really true. That I decoded something — this matrix — at the end of the first volume of “Alternative History,” on August 30, 2023, and the Spirit entered me. But it was already within me, as if, while I was making that book. But then it fully entered, and as Big Alexander once said — when it enters me completely, it won’t leave. Something like that. And before that, I was just connecting to it. And here’s another point of confusion — before, the Mystic-Old-Man and Big Alexander would say that the Spirit comes into me and then leaves, and that it’s as if I connect to it. Like there’s a kind of Wi-Fi point, and I can activate something within myself, awaken a lens inside, activate the matrix, the soul — purify it with prayers and so on. And then — boom — the Spirit enters me. And it’s true — in fact, in many sacred scriptures this is exactly what’s said. And truly, with many people even in our time, such things have happened — when a person could pray, attend a service, and the Spirit could descend into them. It’s as if they connected to something divine, as if nature began to manifest through them — and that’s true. But if there’s a distinction to be made here, then it turns out that it used to be like that. And when I decoded the matrix at the end of the first volume of “Alternative History,” it should have absorbed me — if I decoded it — entered me. But I didn’t understand that at the time and thought I still needed