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[Alexandr Korol]

a different world, I’ll forget it — because that was in that world, and I’ll be in another one when I return. That’s why I need to write it down and remember it.” And he was right — that’s the paradox. This is why people sometimes have memory problems. In one state, they can perceive and understand something, but then in another state — when they shift — they don’t remember it, because that state never stored the memory. It’s like different personalities. And going back to that question — when I was recording, or writing down, or sketching out all the ways to capture what I was experiencing while I was in the Spirit — like in the second volume of “Alternative History” — I wasn’t in the kind of moment where I was sitting there intellectually analyzing everything, calculating, comparing. It was more like... Let me put it differently — imagine I’m running through a forest, dogs are chasing me, my backpack falls off — everything’s happening at once. And now imagine that while all of that is happening, I’m describing it — recording everything on a voice recorder, how I was just now running through the forest. But again, when I recorded it all — how I was running through the forest from dogs, so to speak, or wolves — it was from a particular angle, from a particular perspective. And then, when I reread it — that’s the only moment I can stop and think and look at what time I started running, what time I stopped running — and only then do I realize and get shocked that I had been running for an hour, even though back then it felt like five minutes. Then there’s more. I had lost my backpack — and only later, when I read or listen to what I had recorded during that chase, only now, sitting at home with a cup of tea, can I reflect on it and remember what was in the backpack. And realize that I lost a laptop with a book on it — a book that existed nowhere else, wasn’t backed up, the one I was writing. So what conclusion do we reach? You see, in different states I can assess a situation or information differently, perceive it differently, draw different conclusions. And now, imagine — when I’m sitting at the table drinking tea and evaluating all of this, I’m doing it from the point of view of the material world, of the mind, of logic. But I could also be in another mood, in another state, from another world, another angle — and read it all again, and perceive it completely differently once more. The same goes for the second volume of “Alternative History,” just like the first. Imagine — by 2023, the first volume of “Alternative History” was 70% written. I had started it in 2010, and by 2023, I had those 70%. And only when I reread those 70% did I notice things I