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[Alexandr Korol]

feeling of dissatisfaction and restlessness. And I saw how, honestly, out of nowhere, people would make up illusions either about me or about others. I saw how people, without any reason at all, could take offense or get angry. Everyone had a whole pile, an endless stream of various emotions. I saw how people could get so upset over something trivial as if someone had died. And I would always say this to someone — for example, imagine something happened to a person, like they forgot to grab a pastry or accidentally broke a pencil, and they got so upset, to the point of pain, and I felt all of it very deeply, and I would say:

— Why are you so upset? Did someone die?
— No.
— Then why do you feel as if you lost someone? It’s just a pencil, after all.

And I also saw how people rejoice over little things. And I didn’t understand either — how could someone lose their head so much that they were truly in a state of shock just because they were given a pencil? And they too would lose awareness and vigilance. And now I’m beginning to remember all of this, and indeed, it turns out that I came like that — awakened. Then I descended, that is, into the world of people, and now I’m going through this entire path again, the path that people go through with all their reincarnations and lives, and now I’m describing all of it in my books. Just imagine — truly — all these five points that I just cited from Wikipedia, it’s real. I would say every person, every reader, every one of my colleagues or friends has at least one of these five qualities. And whenever I see that someone is being driven by that quality, I always try to explain to the person that it’s not really them — it’s that serpent inside, like a parasite, poisoning their soul. And it’s so funny how it’s said there: “anger, resentment, the desire to indulge” — many people don’t even consider this a sin, they think they want to live for pleasure. But in fact, you see, this is considered one of the five negative qualities that intoxicate and mislead a person. Anger — that one’s clear. Apathy, laziness — also clear. But it’s funny too — that restless mind — how many people suffer from that, they can’t even sit at home for two hours just to paint a picture or read a book, their mind simply doesn’t give them peace, and meditation — even more so — is completely inaccessible to them.