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[Alexandr Korol]

or some kind of glacier. Then he said something about future technologies that will allow people not to age or get sick. And Big Alexander asked them, “Why are we all so sick and crooked, everyone’s getting ill and dying?” They said that all the chosen ones — no matter how sick they get — won’t die, because they are under protection. Everyone’s being shaken up, but still, nothing bad can happen to those who are chosen.
Then I told Big Alexander that I want to go into nirvana. He said under no circumstances should I do that, that I shouldn’t rush. Then I suddenly began to realize that we mean different things by the word “nirvana,” because he said it might harm me. And I told him:

— Wait, you misunderstood me. By nirvana, I mean that state I had in childhood, even before I met you, when I had insane fearlessness, an insanely stable inner state, that even if someone pointed a gun at me, nothing would flinch inside. And no matter what happened in the world, inside me there was stillness, no thoughts, as if I was in a vacuum. And I want to enter that state.
— That’s not nirvana. That’s, yes, it’s a cool state, somehow connected to nirvana, a result of nirvana, but it’s not nirvana. Nirvana is when your hands and chest, all of this, are burning. And you often called me, Alex, and said that you feel like you’re about to burst into flames, and the people nearby feel bad, like they can’t breathe, and everyone is burning up.
— Yes. So that’s nirvana?
— Yes. That state — you can lose coordination in it, you can’t stay in it for long. It’s a very powerful thing, and you can literally burn up physically. You can’t imagine what kind of temperature it is — you could instantly burn. You’d just turn into dust, not even your clothes would remain. You’d simply disappear completely.

And he said that under no circumstances should I stay in that state for long — I need to learn to handle that power, to control it. And yes, if I even think of someone while in that state, they’ll immediately feel heat or suffocation. That’s how strong it is — my protective etheric force, that’s what he also called it. Then he said something else... Technically, of course, there’s no point