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[Alexandr Korol]

consumer desires like people do. All I want is to create. Not to read a book but to have a clean piece of paper and a pen and to write. No desire to own a painting but have a canvas and paint. No desire to own things, but to have a camera and take photos. A huge desire to make things. And it inspires more and more. It is very unusual. This transformation will be happening now and it is interesting how I will look and what I’m going to do. Will I listen to music and does this season have a soundtrack or I will completely prohibit it.

As on the visual side of things, it is unimportant what you wear and how you look. All I ate today was a piece of cheese sandwich. That was all I ate for the day and I will not eat anything else. Even the tea that I had was stale. Because I made new tea several times and it still doesn’t have any taste or flavor.

This constant control, responsibilities, attachments – all of this.. You know, it is swell to run your business, to work, to create, to socialize with people. But for some reason all of this has a negative impact on people. As if people don’t have a sense of moderation and drown in it and fill themselves up with junk. As I said before, it is crucial for you to come back to yourself, become a zero and feel yourself again. And then you can meet with a group of friends, communicate. have a good laugh or an argument, this is totally fine. But after that, when you get home, you have to forget everyone completely and turn off and consolidate yourself into a single point. Whereas people are always attached to something. You are keeping so many things in your mind – people you owe something, or who is thinking about you, or who are you thinking about or upset about, or maybe you need to go somewhere in a couple of days or that you have a meeting on Monday. But the meeting is on Monday, not now, do you understand? But you cannot not think about it. And there are many tasks and assignments that are old, outdated and most importantly, tasks that expired and passed. And there are new ones. All of this is bad. So it turns out that remembering and thinking of the past, quoting it as well as constantly thinking of the future is bad. This is a trap. Your attention is torn between left and right. And there is nothing left of you here in the middle. That’s why all the dementia, doze, mind decay and Groundhog Day Syndrome are happening. Do you understand? Take a note of this as well. Turning to zero, starting anew were the goals when I sold and gave