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[Alexandr Korol]

— Yes, I want it, but I just cannot make such big statements. After all, I see the future. I don’t see that you and I will be doing this. Everything is temporary.

And so people appeared temporarily, disappeared, appeared, disappeared. And what did I have? Also, if we fix this essence of attachment. I always wanted a house or an apartment, my own place to live. Well, that was imposed on me by people at the beginning. And when I closed myself off and became a person of the mind, I understood that it was necessary, because people are driven by fear, and that is why they want their own housing. But in the world “without the mind,” when I was in the world of heaven, I was always living who knows where. Always living who knows where. That is, undefined. But again, there are a lot of “buts,” there are many extremes. There are moments when it is bad that you have not settled. There are moments when in the world of heaven you still should have a permanent home, there are many such nuances. But now I am describing childhood. Now everything will be a little more polished, more interesting. But in childhood it was the norm, in youth, in childhood it was the norm, when you did not know where you would be tomorrow, where you would go or travel, or where you would live. That is, imagine, right now I am in a hotel, I checked in at six in the evening, just walked into the lobby and said I want a room. No online, I cannot sit on the phone, cannot even write, can you imagine? And that’s it, I just chose a room and checked in. This is maybe the sixth hotel, the fifth hotel in recent times, I keep changing them. Also somehow by feelings it all falls into place, moving back and forth like this. But as if, you know, the secret is that there must be uncertainty. That is, as if if I had rented a hotel room now for two months, the magic would vanish, certainty would appear, that well, everything is already clear, defined. And now my soul, my heart, wants even more of this magic, and I, by intuition, by inner feeling, without thinking, do what seems to open me even more, to set me free, to spread my wings even more, to put it in sacred language. And so there cannot be any attachments to people, to certain places, to time. I had no plan for today. And it is as if you cannot think at all, and you don’t need to. No, you can reflect with your consciousness here and now on different topics, but it is as if in a completely different way.